StReSsEd OuT!!!!!
yea im really bored and havent updated in forever, but i really dont have time to, so ill try to update as much as i can...right now im feeling kinda crappy and im having really bad pains again like near my ribs when i breathe, idk whats wrong with me...anyways, what new with me?!?!...not much but PSATs are wednesday!!!...yikes im sooo nervous, but i really shouldnt be cuz they dont count for sophmore year, but still!!! Yea i have been VERY besy with school and dance...as alot of u guys kno...im getting so stressed out lately because of it too...like im stressing over tests adn stuff, especially in world lit and geometry, im so scared im gonna flunk those two classes!!! And with dance im dancing 7 dyas a week and im mostly living at CCB with rehearsals and classes!!! And my foot is starting to kill again, i really need to get that surgery to get the extra bone removed, but there is never a good time to get that done!!! But its effecting me so much cuz not just cuz of the bone, but all the tendons in my foot are in knots and that killing me all teh way to my back...and russian rehearsals def arent helping me at all!!!...but what can i do about that...NOTHING!!!...anyways, dance team is very interesting so far, we had 2 practices, one of them which we actually started to come up with a dance!!! Lets just say, its not me at all!!! but sarina doesnt listen to anyone and thinks that this style of dancing is everyones...she doesnt mix it up a bit!!! but she also doesnt dance, and no one can do the stuff i can do, but sarina wont even let me show her shit!!! I wanna quit cuz i feel like we just gonna be a joke like the cheerleaders at our school, but i wanna show everyone what i can do!!! idk this just isnt going the way i thought it was!!!!
Besides the stress, i have been also having ALOT of fun, like i had today with my boy carms!!! Even though we didnt do anything special, we just had a good time talking about stuff and just fooling around and watching the recital from last year, lol, dont ask!!! And i cant wait cuz 2mara kaits coming back from maine, i really wish i could have went with her, but my damn rehearsals got in the way, like usual. But at the same time, i was kinda glad i didnt go cuz i actually got some time kinda to relax since she usually comes over all the time...anyways, 2mara i might hang out with mondo...i really wanna see him again cuz hes such a sweetie and i havent seen him in FOREVER and i miss him lots, but thats up to my mom!!! I also wanna go to Matt and Chris's football game, but idk if my mom will want to drive me to avon, so i might just end up going with mrs. carmel...but since i still gotta study for some test, idk what will happen!!!
ok im gonna TRY get some sleep since i havent been sleeping well at all for the past couple fo months!!!
Besides the stress, i have been also having ALOT of fun, like i had today with my boy carms!!! Even though we didnt do anything special, we just had a good time talking about stuff and just fooling around and watching the recital from last year, lol, dont ask!!! And i cant wait cuz 2mara kaits coming back from maine, i really wish i could have went with her, but my damn rehearsals got in the way, like usual. But at the same time, i was kinda glad i didnt go cuz i actually got some time kinda to relax since she usually comes over all the time...anyways, 2mara i might hang out with mondo...i really wanna see him again cuz hes such a sweetie and i havent seen him in FOREVER and i miss him lots, but thats up to my mom!!! I also wanna go to Matt and Chris's football game, but idk if my mom will want to drive me to avon, so i might just end up going with mrs. carmel...but since i still gotta study for some test, idk what will happen!!!
ok im gonna TRY get some sleep since i havent been sleeping well at all for the past couple fo months!!!