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Sometimes I sit back and wonder why... why im here, what im doing, what i could possibly be meant to do. I can't fucking figure it out. It all seems so trivial and meaningless. This place, these people, the shit i do everyday. Its fucking worthless. What do I do it for, myself? not really. My whole life I have lived to please others, to give everyone else what they wanted. I think it is time i do something for myself. Maybe that is the driving force behind me moving back to the TC. I sometimes wonder why I even came here in the first place. It's not because of me, probably because I thought it would make my father happy. that seems to make the most sense. I'm done with it. I just have to get through finals and I am out of here.
I talked to my parents today. I am going to move in with them and work until I can get all my debt and shit paid off, then as soon as it is feasable for me I am going to get my own place. It is no doubt gonna be hell living there again. Especially considering that they are going to "treat me like a jr. high student" please tell me what good that does. I can't imagine why they would want me in the house any more than I have to be.
By my calculations, it is gonna take me about one and a half months to pay off my debt after I start working. Then approximately anothe half a month to save up enough to move out. The first thing I have to do is get a job. I could really use some help in this area. If anybody knows of places in South Minneapolis that are hiring please let me know. I can't apply until the 20th but it would still be nice to know where to start looking. I suppose Southdale and the MOA would be the firs places to try, or uptown since that is where I am planning on getting a house as soon as I can. Help me out people.
It looks like I am gonna have to be out of school for at least a year. I can't pay the school off yet, and I can't get my transcripts until I do. This means that the earliest I could apply somewhere is gonna be about the middle to end of February, and I would have to apply for the Spring 2006 semester. This blows, the last thing I want to do is extend the amount of time it takes me to graduate by a year. But I guess that is how things are going to work out. I don't have much choice.
It's late, but I can't sleep, I didnt even sleep that late today, at least not by my standards. I think I am seriously sick. I can't sleep sometimes, and then at others, all I want to do is sleep, and it's totally random. I thought my sleep pattern was just off at first, but it just comes and goes, one minute I feel like I could run a marathon, the next all I want to do is lay down, right where I am and go out. Anybody know what it is that I am experiencing?
I watched Beatleguese tonight. I hadn't seen it in a long time, I forgot how good it is. Tim Burton is a genius. I still haven't seen Big Fish(i think that's what its called). Oh Oh Oh!!! I saw a comercial for Blade Trinity. I can't wait. I dont care what people say, those movies kick ass. Okay maybe I am a little too obsessed with vampires, but really, they are hawt! Heidi, I forbid you to go to this movie without me. I insist that we go see it together. Have you seen the first two? If not, we will rent them and then go see it. <3<3<3<3
In addition to all that, I hope someone gets me the Party Monster movie and Shockumentary for Christmas. I love those films. They are neat.
I think that is about it for my senseless mind babble. I hope you have all enjoyed. Heidi, give me a call if you want, remember it's not long distance from your home phone. I will try you tonight(Wednesday) probably. Luv you babe! <3<3<3XOXOXO
I talked to my parents today. I am going to move in with them and work until I can get all my debt and shit paid off, then as soon as it is feasable for me I am going to get my own place. It is no doubt gonna be hell living there again. Especially considering that they are going to "treat me like a jr. high student" please tell me what good that does. I can't imagine why they would want me in the house any more than I have to be.
By my calculations, it is gonna take me about one and a half months to pay off my debt after I start working. Then approximately anothe half a month to save up enough to move out. The first thing I have to do is get a job. I could really use some help in this area. If anybody knows of places in South Minneapolis that are hiring please let me know. I can't apply until the 20th but it would still be nice to know where to start looking. I suppose Southdale and the MOA would be the firs places to try, or uptown since that is where I am planning on getting a house as soon as I can. Help me out people.
It looks like I am gonna have to be out of school for at least a year. I can't pay the school off yet, and I can't get my transcripts until I do. This means that the earliest I could apply somewhere is gonna be about the middle to end of February, and I would have to apply for the Spring 2006 semester. This blows, the last thing I want to do is extend the amount of time it takes me to graduate by a year. But I guess that is how things are going to work out. I don't have much choice.
It's late, but I can't sleep, I didnt even sleep that late today, at least not by my standards. I think I am seriously sick. I can't sleep sometimes, and then at others, all I want to do is sleep, and it's totally random. I thought my sleep pattern was just off at first, but it just comes and goes, one minute I feel like I could run a marathon, the next all I want to do is lay down, right where I am and go out. Anybody know what it is that I am experiencing?
I watched Beatleguese tonight. I hadn't seen it in a long time, I forgot how good it is. Tim Burton is a genius. I still haven't seen Big Fish(i think that's what its called). Oh Oh Oh!!! I saw a comercial for Blade Trinity. I can't wait. I dont care what people say, those movies kick ass. Okay maybe I am a little too obsessed with vampires, but really, they are hawt! Heidi, I forbid you to go to this movie without me. I insist that we go see it together. Have you seen the first two? If not, we will rent them and then go see it. <3<3<3<3
In addition to all that, I hope someone gets me the Party Monster movie and Shockumentary for Christmas. I love those films. They are neat.
I think that is about it for my senseless mind babble. I hope you have all enjoyed. Heidi, give me a call if you want, remember it's not long distance from your home phone. I will try you tonight(Wednesday) probably. Luv you babe! <3<3<3XOXOXO