Nov 28, 2004 05:06
WOW ... so I haven't updated in half a year. Well I have some ranting to do and what better place to do than my LJ. It's what it's for. Well to start for those who don't know Alyssa broke up with me. There an update on my love life because that is what i shall be writing about. So ... why is it when i meet a girl, who i actually don't want to just fuck and want to start something with, do they just wan't to be friends. AH, perhaps i shall have to tell you a tall of what im ranting about. A few weeks ago i meet a girl, her name is Cristy. Cristy and I kinda of (In my opinion and POV) hit it off really fucking well, we were hugging, kissing, just enjoying each other, like I looove so much. So that sunday she says that she'll call me, cause she's busy and has shit to do. NO PROBLEM!! She has like 3 jobs or something so i completely understand her situation. I called her once because I wanted to know what was up, then left it at that. So she calls me on thursday, thanksgiving, and tells me shes all alone and what not. I'm like FUCK THAT, alone on thanksgiving oHH no. So i drive to her place and share some pumpkin pie, and basically agree that I'm a great guy, great "friend" and generally cool person. Ok now this is where the frustration of the situation is going to happen. Please bear with me and understand that this is purely for some release. WHY THE FUCK IF IM SUCH A NICE AND CARING GUY DOES EVERYONE NEVER WANT TO DATE ME AND JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS I SWEAR TO GOD DO I HAVE TO BE A FUCKING PRICK TO GET SOMEONE TO FUCKING DATE ME. 0-o Well ... *clears throat* ... I feel better, sorry about that folks, but yes I'm frustrated because every girl i meet, that kisses me, makes out with me, and tells me they get all jelloy inside when they kiss me, all just want to be my friend -_- All right I believe I am done with my rant. Now to try to mend any harm i may have done to certain individuals. Cristy, if you read this please understand that this is in no way, thou it may seem that it is, is in no way directed towards you. I think your fucking chill as hell and would have liked very much to have dated you even if for a little while. I completely understand your situation at the current moment, and totally understand why you wouldn't want to date ANYWAY with whats going on with you ex and your jobs and you living situation and fucking everything. Know that you have gained someone who cares about people right off the bat, and i generally want to see that you are safe and content. If short you have gained a friend. And you are not the cause of this LJ rant, but this sort of thing happens to me far too often for me to remain civil about it. WOW i feel better, ... annnyway. Yeah so how about that for my first update in fucking 6 months. um ... Ill see you guys later, hopefully with a more cheerful update