Aug 30, 2011 22:35
Much time will pass
before I hear from you
and I get a little better
but then you say hello
or write me a sweet note
and I fall apart
I’d never tell you to stop
because you were always worth
falling part
I don’t break down
like the night you left
but I’m still a wreck
I keep comparing
other girls to you
and I never even had you
I feel like a rambling fool
and can picture you
pitying me for this
I swore I’d never
write about you again
but here I am
and there you are
over a thousand miles away
where I don’t exist
Yet you are here
in my few memories
The celebrated star
of my missed opportunities
Adoring fan of my art
and the pump of my heart
I know us together
would’ve been chaos
but it also could’ve been
perfect, imperfectly
I would’ve done anything
to make real my dream
And while I wanted you
I didn’t really know
what I wanted altogether
and I know you were
so fixed and too focused
to handle my fluctuations
But I’m not the same guy
that you knew 4 years ago
I’m a man with a path
and you belong on it
Why else would I love you
if I wasn’t supposed to?
Maybe my feelings for you
are but echoes from before
but unlike then
I’m willing to risk it all
and when we meet again
I hope you are too
©2011 Michael Ernest Lendo