Did She Just Say Cum Coat???
Forecast:
Mood: Michael Moore Kicks MUCHO ASS-O
Shaking the Wall: 99 Luft Balloons; The Wars Theme Song
Also: Ghetto Superstar, cause it's
it's all about MYA!
Firstlies, shout-outs to Liah, because she is just a super kewl 'qat like that and I love her down to the atoms that make her the lucious black Goddess she is today.
Onward.
Today, I woke up at the same time that I happened to on Saturday, coincidences like this make me wonder... what, I do not know, but my mind is perplexed none the less.
I washed the car thoroughly today. I had been putting off this one little chore for, oh, about, two years, max. I detailed, vacuumed, brushed, shined, squeegied, washed, waxed, buffed, spit polished and scoured that damned thing, literally. It is so fucking clean now, it puts operating rooms to shame, and it all only took me, five hours to almost complete. Not bad, not bad at all.
Also, I was looking through things today, when my little bit of humor for the next day ocurred. Martha Stewart was on a tape that I was forwarding through, and the first thing I hear is, " You'll want to make your first CUM coat thin, and go over it again a second time..." Oh fun! Though this was all a trick of the ear, it heard it, and it had me in fits of laughter for approximately, 3 minutes;+)~
I have been wondering recently, " what am I to do when I am graduated and an independent and learned member of society?" PARTY LIKE IT IS GOING OUT OF STYLE!!! comes to mind, but, that can't be the answer, it just can't! Sadly, whenever I attempt to see something in my future, I cannot. My closest friend also admitted to this, and it has had me wonderign more and more, what is in my future. I know of things that I would like to be, and places that I would LOVE to go, but when I truly try to see myself somewhere 5 years from now, I see nothing but blackness, blankness, Abyss. Now this can either mean one of two or three things. One, that I am just not yet decided on my future, for, who can ever be truly decided, but I just hold a greater amount of indecision and I simply need to take my time, and make sure to have an open mind while I seeek out my destiny. Or, two, that there is nothing in my future, either, that maybe, I am not to be here for too much longer and I will end up just being one of those dreadful statistics that they throw at you ages 11-18. I don't like to think this, it doesn't bring me pleasure or fulsill something within me to envision my demise, but, what if this is it, what if my life is reaching it's apex and I am never going to have what I always thought I was entitled to. All this leaves me thinking about how I am living my life, and left me asking myself if I am living it to the fullest that I can, making hte most of my situation. I realize, I have put my life on hold, and instead of directing my myself to a path which I desire to walk, I am more, reading a mad and standing in one stationary position trying to figure out if I am holding it right side up. I have completely put my life on hold, waiting for when I will be able to be "free" and "independent." The only problem is that I am wasting so much of my life by doing so. Not only that, but I am stifling many possibilities with this standby policy. I know many people do this at some point int heir lives, but, no one ever tells you that, truthfully, when you do that, hardly ever do you grow out of that habit. For the most part, you continue living like that, and never truly do you take your life into your own control, you always just, look to tomorrow to fulfill today. That is impossible though, and when you do that, you are only inhibiting yourself from further progress, and deminishing great opportunities that await you.
So now that I am well on my way to taking control once again, and realizin many of my faults, and redirecting many of my patterns, I have to take in the damage that I have done, and ascertain exactly how I can make something of whatever, however is in my future, because as C.S. Lewis said,
"Time hasn't stopped for any troubles, heartaches, or any other malfunctions of this world, so please don't tell me it will stop for you."
Ciao, Chris=+)~ a.k.a 2Pacent
Mood: Michael Moore Kicks MUCHO ASS-O
Shaking the Wall: 99 Luft Balloons; The Wars Theme Song
Also: Ghetto Superstar, cause it's
it's all about MYA!
Firstlies, shout-outs to Liah, because she is just a super kewl 'qat like that and I love her down to the atoms that make her the lucious black Goddess she is today.
Onward.
Today, I woke up at the same time that I happened to on Saturday, coincidences like this make me wonder... what, I do not know, but my mind is perplexed none the less.
I washed the car thoroughly today. I had been putting off this one little chore for, oh, about, two years, max. I detailed, vacuumed, brushed, shined, squeegied, washed, waxed, buffed, spit polished and scoured that damned thing, literally. It is so fucking clean now, it puts operating rooms to shame, and it all only took me, five hours to almost complete. Not bad, not bad at all.
Also, I was looking through things today, when my little bit of humor for the next day ocurred. Martha Stewart was on a tape that I was forwarding through, and the first thing I hear is, " You'll want to make your first CUM coat thin, and go over it again a second time..." Oh fun! Though this was all a trick of the ear, it heard it, and it had me in fits of laughter for approximately, 3 minutes;+)~
I have been wondering recently, " what am I to do when I am graduated and an independent and learned member of society?" PARTY LIKE IT IS GOING OUT OF STYLE!!! comes to mind, but, that can't be the answer, it just can't! Sadly, whenever I attempt to see something in my future, I cannot. My closest friend also admitted to this, and it has had me wonderign more and more, what is in my future. I know of things that I would like to be, and places that I would LOVE to go, but when I truly try to see myself somewhere 5 years from now, I see nothing but blackness, blankness, Abyss. Now this can either mean one of two or three things. One, that I am just not yet decided on my future, for, who can ever be truly decided, but I just hold a greater amount of indecision and I simply need to take my time, and make sure to have an open mind while I seeek out my destiny. Or, two, that there is nothing in my future, either, that maybe, I am not to be here for too much longer and I will end up just being one of those dreadful statistics that they throw at you ages 11-18. I don't like to think this, it doesn't bring me pleasure or fulsill something within me to envision my demise, but, what if this is it, what if my life is reaching it's apex and I am never going to have what I always thought I was entitled to. All this leaves me thinking about how I am living my life, and left me asking myself if I am living it to the fullest that I can, making hte most of my situation. I realize, I have put my life on hold, and instead of directing my myself to a path which I desire to walk, I am more, reading a mad and standing in one stationary position trying to figure out if I am holding it right side up. I have completely put my life on hold, waiting for when I will be able to be "free" and "independent." The only problem is that I am wasting so much of my life by doing so. Not only that, but I am stifling many possibilities with this standby policy. I know many people do this at some point int heir lives, but, no one ever tells you that, truthfully, when you do that, hardly ever do you grow out of that habit. For the most part, you continue living like that, and never truly do you take your life into your own control, you always just, look to tomorrow to fulfill today. That is impossible though, and when you do that, you are only inhibiting yourself from further progress, and deminishing great opportunities that await you.
So now that I am well on my way to taking control once again, and realizin many of my faults, and redirecting many of my patterns, I have to take in the damage that I have done, and ascertain exactly how I can make something of whatever, however is in my future, because as C.S. Lewis said,
"Time hasn't stopped for any troubles, heartaches, or any other malfunctions of this world, so please don't tell me it will stop for you."
Ciao, Chris=+)~ a.k.a 2Pacent