To You Austin:
My Baby,
Austin, I just have to tell you how much I love you. Today you and I went off after Brandon and Chantel went to the apartment because Chantel got a call from Liz.
I am rewriting this paragraph. I don't know what to say. Just that when I think of you and I, I cry from how wonderfully happy I am. I don't have any plans for us that reach further than the weekend. I don't want to own you, or control you, I would never want to cage you like I see so many of our friends doing in relationships. I love how you come in and out of my life and still make it known that you are there for me whenever I may need you. I want everything for you Austin as I want everything for myself and I have so much hope that I can share it with you. I want to share my life with you. Everyday that I have been with you has more significance to me because somehow you were with me. I realize more and more how much you mean to me and how lucky I really am as Brandon said to have you and how I somehow feel bad that I ever thought I loved someone because it doesn't compare to how I feel about us. I do not have plans for us, but I do have many hopes. I do admit that I hope for our future and I do wonder how it will work. I do worry about how long we will be, and I realize as soon as I ask myself that it isn't about tomorrow, tomorrow doesn't even exist yet, but we love each other today, and yesterday and I can sleep at night, in your arms and wake to love you again and then, I will see tomorrow.
I miss you. It has been 1 hour and 28 minutes and I miss you. I think about what you are doing and if you are thinking about me. I think you are. There is a feeling when I think about us Austin, when I think about you that I cannot write here, that I have been trying so hard to name and when I try all I can think about is how you look when you smile and how good it feels to be the one that made you do so. We have spoken about it before and so much has happened since then, but if there is such a thing as a soulmate, I feel we qualify. You have given so much to me Austin, and you do so much to show that you love me and I realize that, I realize it so much now, I see it so clearly. I have been told how much you have changed, how much more you try. It isn't that, it isn't that you try harder, or more, it is that you have changed the ways that you love me, and I have changed the ways that I love you. No more or less, but differently. You accept me, and know me, feel me understand and predict more about me than anyone else, and god how annoying it can be! =+)~
I just wanted this to be a short e-mail, oops. There is just so much that I want to tell you and the only way I can is to show it. I Love You though babe, in the best way that I feel someone could, and I feel like you feel the same way. I just want to make you smile, and laugh and cry from joy just as you make me, just as I am right now.
XOXO8,
Your Baby=+)~
Austin, I just have to tell you how much I love you. Today you and I went off after Brandon and Chantel went to the apartment because Chantel got a call from Liz.
I am rewriting this paragraph. I don't know what to say. Just that when I think of you and I, I cry from how wonderfully happy I am. I don't have any plans for us that reach further than the weekend. I don't want to own you, or control you, I would never want to cage you like I see so many of our friends doing in relationships. I love how you come in and out of my life and still make it known that you are there for me whenever I may need you. I want everything for you Austin as I want everything for myself and I have so much hope that I can share it with you. I want to share my life with you. Everyday that I have been with you has more significance to me because somehow you were with me. I realize more and more how much you mean to me and how lucky I really am as Brandon said to have you and how I somehow feel bad that I ever thought I loved someone because it doesn't compare to how I feel about us. I do not have plans for us, but I do have many hopes. I do admit that I hope for our future and I do wonder how it will work. I do worry about how long we will be, and I realize as soon as I ask myself that it isn't about tomorrow, tomorrow doesn't even exist yet, but we love each other today, and yesterday and I can sleep at night, in your arms and wake to love you again and then, I will see tomorrow.
I miss you. It has been 1 hour and 28 minutes and I miss you. I think about what you are doing and if you are thinking about me. I think you are. There is a feeling when I think about us Austin, when I think about you that I cannot write here, that I have been trying so hard to name and when I try all I can think about is how you look when you smile and how good it feels to be the one that made you do so. We have spoken about it before and so much has happened since then, but if there is such a thing as a soulmate, I feel we qualify. You have given so much to me Austin, and you do so much to show that you love me and I realize that, I realize it so much now, I see it so clearly. I have been told how much you have changed, how much more you try. It isn't that, it isn't that you try harder, or more, it is that you have changed the ways that you love me, and I have changed the ways that I love you. No more or less, but differently. You accept me, and know me, feel me understand and predict more about me than anyone else, and god how annoying it can be! =+)~
I just wanted this to be a short e-mail, oops. There is just so much that I want to tell you and the only way I can is to show it. I Love You though babe, in the best way that I feel someone could, and I feel like you feel the same way. I just want to make you smile, and laugh and cry from joy just as you make me, just as I am right now.
XOXO8,
Your Baby=+)~