I don't even know what
I've liked this guy for the past 3 months. He just got out of a relationship, not to mention he has alot of inner issues he's been trying to work through. We've made out, we've slept together. I've followed him around like a puppy dog. I've been genuine, honest and real with him. I've confided my feelings many times. The last thing he told me, the last time I saw him, was that he didn't want to make out with me because then what we have would turn into a relationship and he can't handle that right now. I went away this past weekend. He hooked with someone I considered a friend. I hadn't discussed my feelings for him to her, but she knew. He apparantly had a crush on her for a while.
I'm very upset. I feel pitied and betrayed. I feel like the honesty I'd been giving was not reciprocated.
I don't understand why he wouldn't just tell me that he didn't feel the same about me. If the roles were reversed, I would have just said no. I wouldn't let someone linger.
Matters of the heart are the worst. I'm not an artistic person and I can't express the way I feel in any beautiful meaningfuly way, I can't universalise my emotions for all to relate to, but I try to be clear.
I think I need to shut my heart down.
I'm very upset. I feel pitied and betrayed. I feel like the honesty I'd been giving was not reciprocated.
I don't understand why he wouldn't just tell me that he didn't feel the same about me. If the roles were reversed, I would have just said no. I wouldn't let someone linger.
Matters of the heart are the worst. I'm not an artistic person and I can't express the way I feel in any beautiful meaningfuly way, I can't universalise my emotions for all to relate to, but I try to be clear.
I think I need to shut my heart down.