oh this thing called life.
so. i have been around the world since i last wrote. australia & indonesia. it was pretty cool i guess. and when i say pretty cool i mean, amazing. that is the only word to describe it. it wasn't great, it wasn't awesome, it wasn't the most fun i've had in my life. it was amazing though, for sure. the Father had a large hand in all that happened, so that's why.
i think i realized why i have stopped writing in any online journal or anything anymore.. i don't really enjoy talking about myself. it is sort of awkward turtle for me. i'm ok listening to others and hearing about their lives and what is going on with them, but when it comes time to tell people about myself, it's hard. there are a select few who i will open up to, but the norm is not that many people make it past that top layer of debbie. not really sure why, nor do i feel like sitting and analyzing myself to figure it all out.
recently my life has been pretty much summed up by john 3:30.. He must increase, but i must decrease (NKJV). it is pretty ridiculously true anyway. seeking & following after Him in everything. but, i am useless, i can not do it on my own, He must guide & direct me. it is Him. all Him. i am absolutely nothing without Him. He is my all. the One i cling to. there are times when this is most evident -- during the day, when He continually provides me with strength; when He faithfully gives me wisdom and guidance in tough situations; and when He directs and protects me from making dumb decisions.
i'm too exhausted to write much more. i haven't gotten to bed before 1 this week, which i think is making this silly asian sickness stick a little bit longer. it's been over two weeks, i ran out of my meds 5 days ago. this is only semi-ridiculous. at least it's just a cough that's left... and this exhaustion that the Father definitely can override.
did i mention that i truly am excited to be a part of whatever the Lord has in store for me? no joke. i have no idea what it is or what it will be. but i know that it is He who is guiding my path. so when that infamous "what are you doing after you graduate?" question comes up, and i have no idea, i'm ok with that, because He knows, He has been faithfully guiding and directing me this far, and i don't think He will suddenly stop.
i think i realized why i have stopped writing in any online journal or anything anymore.. i don't really enjoy talking about myself. it is sort of awkward turtle for me. i'm ok listening to others and hearing about their lives and what is going on with them, but when it comes time to tell people about myself, it's hard. there are a select few who i will open up to, but the norm is not that many people make it past that top layer of debbie. not really sure why, nor do i feel like sitting and analyzing myself to figure it all out.
recently my life has been pretty much summed up by john 3:30.. He must increase, but i must decrease (NKJV). it is pretty ridiculously true anyway. seeking & following after Him in everything. but, i am useless, i can not do it on my own, He must guide & direct me. it is Him. all Him. i am absolutely nothing without Him. He is my all. the One i cling to. there are times when this is most evident -- during the day, when He continually provides me with strength; when He faithfully gives me wisdom and guidance in tough situations; and when He directs and protects me from making dumb decisions.
i'm too exhausted to write much more. i haven't gotten to bed before 1 this week, which i think is making this silly asian sickness stick a little bit longer. it's been over two weeks, i ran out of my meds 5 days ago. this is only semi-ridiculous. at least it's just a cough that's left... and this exhaustion that the Father definitely can override.
did i mention that i truly am excited to be a part of whatever the Lord has in store for me? no joke. i have no idea what it is or what it will be. but i know that it is He who is guiding my path. so when that infamous "what are you doing after you graduate?" question comes up, and i have no idea, i'm ok with that, because He knows, He has been faithfully guiding and directing me this far, and i don't think He will suddenly stop.