baby is asleep.
the baby is asleep.. on me. she hasn't pooped in 9 days so she is ridiculously fussy, and didn't sleep all morning. i tried to put her up in her crib after she had been asleep on me for a while, but she woke up and, despite my standing there and patting her back and putting the pacifier back in her mouth, she wouldn't go back to sleep. so, she is laying on my tummy, snoring a bit because she also has a cold. she is pretty darn cute.
it's so easy to get caught up in things and forget how blessed you truly are, to ignore what God has done and is doing in your life. last week was insane for me; i got to the point where i started laughing when bad things happened, it was that bad. it was just expected, and i knew there was nothing i could do. but what happens during weeks like that, and weeks like these next two, is that i get caught up in all that i have to do, all the crap i have to do, and though yes i still spend my daily time with God, i forget how much He has blessed me, how much He has a hand in my life and is continually directing it. it could be so much worse. God has blessed me an amazing amount. He has placed incredible people in my life who i can share my heart with, who i can tell my worries and fears to and who will help encourage me. He has given me opportunities to serve Him with others, such as in Mississippi when i made some amazing relationships. He gave me the opportunity to go to Central Asia, and though i was scared, He told me He wanted me to go. i'm blessed because many people aren't given that chance, many people wouldn't hear God's voice and wouldn't follow the call to go. i am blessed becase i heard Him and because i am following Him. there is so much more on my heart but i can't really express it easily through words. my thoughts are always a jumble, they make sense to me but i can never express them to others. i hope this week i remember how blessed i am, how amazing God is, and how much He is in control of my life, of every aspect, from the breaking flip flop to the blisters on my feet to the rain pouring down, it's all part of His plan and He's got it under control.
it's so easy to get caught up in things and forget how blessed you truly are, to ignore what God has done and is doing in your life. last week was insane for me; i got to the point where i started laughing when bad things happened, it was that bad. it was just expected, and i knew there was nothing i could do. but what happens during weeks like that, and weeks like these next two, is that i get caught up in all that i have to do, all the crap i have to do, and though yes i still spend my daily time with God, i forget how much He has blessed me, how much He has a hand in my life and is continually directing it. it could be so much worse. God has blessed me an amazing amount. He has placed incredible people in my life who i can share my heart with, who i can tell my worries and fears to and who will help encourage me. He has given me opportunities to serve Him with others, such as in Mississippi when i made some amazing relationships. He gave me the opportunity to go to Central Asia, and though i was scared, He told me He wanted me to go. i'm blessed because many people aren't given that chance, many people wouldn't hear God's voice and wouldn't follow the call to go. i am blessed becase i heard Him and because i am following Him. there is so much more on my heart but i can't really express it easily through words. my thoughts are always a jumble, they make sense to me but i can never express them to others. i hope this week i remember how blessed i am, how amazing God is, and how much He is in control of my life, of every aspect, from the breaking flip flop to the blisters on my feet to the rain pouring down, it's all part of His plan and He's got it under control.