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[thelaws]

You know what? To everyone? I'm really honestly sorry. I'm sorry I have greed. I should have thought of this in August. I should have thought about this in Mexico. I could have got things with my money there.

I'm so angry with myself.
Christmas, on my part this year, isnt going to happen.
I have no money. I'm sorry.

I can't pay for gifts, and I seriously am asking for please no gifts because I'm going to feel horrible that I cant give anything back.

I honestly cannot pay for gifts. I have no job and my parents are obviously not willing to pay for gifts. So I'm sorry I'm going to do what I can to make gifts-- they really arent going to be that special. I have about $40 I've saved up here and there so I'm going to try and make it work:

We had a fight.

My mom told me she made a mistake adopting me seventeen years ago. She told me I'm a worthless daughter. I told her she failed at being a mother. How the fuck am I going to survive the next two weeks without school, without friends.

I already know I'm a mistake. I didnt need confirmation on that.
I need to do work. I need to forget these emotions. I need to forget everything.