confused
i feel like i should know what and who i want to be for the rest of my life. i live with two girls who have been with their boyfriends for 2 years and 1 year. they both know what they want to do with there lives and one is already talking about getting married to her BF.....
....then there is me. i'm not sure if i even want a BF or if i have just lost all feelings for him. he doesn't treat me special like a BF should. the day of my car accident he went to go play poker with his buddies when he got off work and didn't come and see me (i gave him another chance). i only see him twice a week (i'm still with him). he told me point blank that i'm not a priority over work, and "his boys" (i let it go) i'm not even a priority over poker night every week night (i still let it go). i have let so many things slide by and gave him so many chances to make up and he hasn't taken it seriously. this friday he...forgot we were going out until i called him at 8 asking where he was, and we had talked about going out earlier that day. after that i went to a costume party with him and i knew no one. i still stuck it out and actually ran into two people i really didn't want to see, but i still stayed. then saturday night was my halloween party and he pitched a fit b/c i wasn't sitting with him and instead i was talking with all my friends. plus he got mad b/c he didn't know anyone.....
i think it's over...my feelings aren't the same for him b/c he has proven to just take advantage of how nice i am.
....then there is me. i'm not sure if i even want a BF or if i have just lost all feelings for him. he doesn't treat me special like a BF should. the day of my car accident he went to go play poker with his buddies when he got off work and didn't come and see me (i gave him another chance). i only see him twice a week (i'm still with him). he told me point blank that i'm not a priority over work, and "his boys" (i let it go) i'm not even a priority over poker night every week night (i still let it go). i have let so many things slide by and gave him so many chances to make up and he hasn't taken it seriously. this friday he...forgot we were going out until i called him at 8 asking where he was, and we had talked about going out earlier that day. after that i went to a costume party with him and i knew no one. i still stuck it out and actually ran into two people i really didn't want to see, but i still stayed. then saturday night was my halloween party and he pitched a fit b/c i wasn't sitting with him and instead i was talking with all my friends. plus he got mad b/c he didn't know anyone.....
i think it's over...my feelings aren't the same for him b/c he has proven to just take advantage of how nice i am.