just what we all need...
sometimes i forget this is a journal. i'm supposed to keep some shit in here from time to time to share, vent, figure things out... today i am trying to figure some things out.
it's been a long year. i've been places i never thought i'd be. i've gone through some very heavy stuff, and had more fun than i probably deserve. i've been out, been bad, been good, cried, laughed... and i'm not sure where it's all going at this moment.
(two paragraphs and i haven't revealed a thing... some journal).
ok, here's what's really on my mind right now. it's this cross-roads time in my life where some really cool stuff could be just around the corner. no i can't talk about it... no i can't afford it... and yes, i think it won't happen. i'm scared to believe in things. scared to hope too much. scared to be attached, scared to be alone, scared to think about it at all.
i have the most wonderful group of friends i could ever hope for. i feel bad that they believe more than i do. today, i just want to hide, because the sky is falling.
now will SOMEONE on my friends list just go out and have a great fucking day and tell us all about it! it seems everyone is bummed about something right now... and i could use a good smile.
it's been a long year. i've been places i never thought i'd be. i've gone through some very heavy stuff, and had more fun than i probably deserve. i've been out, been bad, been good, cried, laughed... and i'm not sure where it's all going at this moment.
(two paragraphs and i haven't revealed a thing... some journal).
ok, here's what's really on my mind right now. it's this cross-roads time in my life where some really cool stuff could be just around the corner. no i can't talk about it... no i can't afford it... and yes, i think it won't happen. i'm scared to believe in things. scared to hope too much. scared to be attached, scared to be alone, scared to think about it at all.
i have the most wonderful group of friends i could ever hope for. i feel bad that they believe more than i do. today, i just want to hide, because the sky is falling.
now will SOMEONE on my friends list just go out and have a great fucking day and tell us all about it! it seems everyone is bummed about something right now... and i could use a good smile.