Can You See What I'm Seeing
People say a leopard cannot change its spots, then why the f do people change?
I still can't believe you said that to me.
You have no idea how it badly it hurts y'know. Triggering tears almost instantly.
And you probably didn't even realise the damage.
Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.
Maybe why I reacted so violently was because of fear.
Because I was afraid, very very afraid, that what you said is true.
That she has tons of friends and doesn't need me.
That when she needed to call someone when she's feeling extremely down the person didn't have to be me. In fact, it was you.
That I don't have to bothered by this because everyone knows she has lots of friends, so it's no big deal if whoops, I weren't the one picked this time. Better luck next time.
Fuck. The thought of this makes me sick.
I'm going to try to blame this whole shit to PMS.
Or maybe convince myself that I'm just being oversensitive and being a bitch because there my friend is, upset and all, and here I am, making a big fuss out of something this small. Just because I weren't the one she called.
Gosh, what kind of friend am I.
I still can't believe you said that to me.
You have no idea how it badly it hurts y'know. Triggering tears almost instantly.
And you probably didn't even realise the damage.
Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.
Maybe why I reacted so violently was because of fear.
Because I was afraid, very very afraid, that what you said is true.
That she has tons of friends and doesn't need me.
That when she needed to call someone when she's feeling extremely down the person didn't have to be me. In fact, it was you.
That I don't have to bothered by this because everyone knows she has lots of friends, so it's no big deal if whoops, I weren't the one picked this time. Better luck next time.
Fuck. The thought of this makes me sick.
I'm going to try to blame this whole shit to PMS.
Or maybe convince myself that I'm just being oversensitive and being a bitch because there my friend is, upset and all, and here I am, making a big fuss out of something this small. Just because I weren't the one she called.
Gosh, what kind of friend am I.