does that make me crazy?
I am overstressed and overtired, and I'm amazed that I haven't broken yet.
I really am stronger than I was before.
I might still go to law school in the fall...I kind of wish I knew one way or another rather than this UNKNOWN. It's just hard. If I don't go, it's possible that I'll drop all my courses at Western anyway. Take a year off, keep working, take some time to think...
I'm almost 22 years old and I don't know what I want out of life.
I mean, even law school...I think that I want it, but I don't KNOW. And I hate that.
Not knowing is the hardest thing in the world.
My Mom and I had a really frank discussion about Michael last night. She called him abusive. I'm inclined to agree. I don't think it was intentional, but he really was emotionally abusive in so many ways...and it scares me that I didn't see it. I hate the way I think about him now. I didn't want it to come to this. Interestingly enough, I feel less anger than I did before. I'm truly becoming indifferent.
There are so many things that I need to do, but I'm just so tired. I've been working really hard at work this week. I've finally learned enough that I have work to do all through the day. I love feeling productive. Maybe I'll become a legal secretary...I don't know.
I think I will go lay down for a bit. My body could definitely use the break.
This week has been very soccer intensive...and the weather sucks. We had to practice in the rain on Wednesday. I bundled up but I still got very wet and gross. I thought we'd only get a handful of girls showing up because of the crap weather, but no, we had THIRTEEN girls show! That's *awesome*. It was more than double what any other team at Williams had. I was so proud.
And now we're into the end of season tournament. We played our first game tonight....in the rain again. It was a tougher game than I expected it to be, but we won and I am pleased. Okay, friggin' ecstatic, really. I get so into this. But I feel my face all burning now. I don't think all of this time outside in this weather is doing me well... I'm still getting over being sick. :( If we win all our games tomorrow, we'll be in finals! Wish us luck!
I'm going to be sleeping. *falls over*
I really am stronger than I was before.
I might still go to law school in the fall...I kind of wish I knew one way or another rather than this UNKNOWN. It's just hard. If I don't go, it's possible that I'll drop all my courses at Western anyway. Take a year off, keep working, take some time to think...
I'm almost 22 years old and I don't know what I want out of life.
I mean, even law school...I think that I want it, but I don't KNOW. And I hate that.
Not knowing is the hardest thing in the world.
My Mom and I had a really frank discussion about Michael last night. She called him abusive. I'm inclined to agree. I don't think it was intentional, but he really was emotionally abusive in so many ways...and it scares me that I didn't see it. I hate the way I think about him now. I didn't want it to come to this. Interestingly enough, I feel less anger than I did before. I'm truly becoming indifferent.
There are so many things that I need to do, but I'm just so tired. I've been working really hard at work this week. I've finally learned enough that I have work to do all through the day. I love feeling productive. Maybe I'll become a legal secretary...I don't know.
I think I will go lay down for a bit. My body could definitely use the break.
This week has been very soccer intensive...and the weather sucks. We had to practice in the rain on Wednesday. I bundled up but I still got very wet and gross. I thought we'd only get a handful of girls showing up because of the crap weather, but no, we had THIRTEEN girls show! That's *awesome*. It was more than double what any other team at Williams had. I was so proud.
And now we're into the end of season tournament. We played our first game tonight....in the rain again. It was a tougher game than I expected it to be, but we won and I am pleased. Okay, friggin' ecstatic, really. I get so into this. But I feel my face all burning now. I don't think all of this time outside in this weather is doing me well... I'm still getting over being sick. :( If we win all our games tomorrow, we'll be in finals! Wish us luck!
I'm going to be sleeping. *falls over*