wallowing
no work since I'm between exhibitions, and steven is away for three whole days out flying. so, what's a girl to do? I'm torn being very productive today and just hanging out- I was going to go and visit my gad schools today, but I really think I'll be happier doing it on wednesday- more prep and all. And I went on a hike yesterday and I feel a little sore. and I want to decorate and watch movies and clean the house, and I think I'll be a little more clear-headed if I just go visit them later. Of course, I might be a little more clear headed if I just NOT GO to graduate school, because no matter how I'm slicing it these days, I can't get excited. Maybe because of the money, maybe because it sees like such a huge step in the direction of a certain CAREER, which is apparently a bad thing. So I'm going to suck it way up and all and try to get through it. however, I have armed myself with some facts about the two schools, and gw is clearly coming out way victorious. It's a harder program with more involved (and I do want to waste my money on a good education), better rated professors, not all feminist progressive new-agey (like American) and a little closer to home. So, as contrary as this may sound, I'm going to go to gwu, I just will get on that soon. procrastinate? me. never ever ever. Instead I'll rip my guts out with pent up worry about what I should be doing rather than going and doing it. bleh. I'll do it wednesday. yes.