Dreams and Fandom
I had a Sylar/Mohinder dream last night. WTF? The two of them were in this weird city that was under siege by mutant dinosaurs. Molly was there, hiding under a bench, and Mohinder was out in the street being 'lookout'. But he had powers - no clue what. Sylar kept like...trying to subtly slice his head open. Like he'd lift up his hand to do it, and Mohinder would turn around, and then Sylar would do one of those 'I was just smoothing down my hair' gestures. And finally Mohinder sat down on the bench next to him and like...leaned in and put his lips right on Sylar's ear and said 'if you're going to do it, just don't do it where Molly can see' and then started like...nuzzling his neck. I don't know.
You know, I remember when I was brand new to internet fandom, and was terrified to admit I didn't like certain pairings, or liked other ones. Because of how serious that sort of thing was. People were defriended for pairing differences. People were lambasted all over fandom for disliking or liking certain pairings. It was ridiculous, but I wanted to 'fit in' or whatever.
I look back on that and go '...wtf was wrong with me?'. At this point, I don't care. I don't hide my pairing preferences. I don't pretend to like shit I don't just because it's popular. And if someone freaks out on me or gives me shit over it... whatever. I'm really beyond caring about something as silly as that. I write what I like because I like it. Not to be 'edgy' or 'cool' or to try and make anyone like me. I used to write for those reasons, but not anymore. I came to my senses.
I just wish everyone in fandom could come to the conclusion that pairing preferences and kinks and themes we like to see in fic are just that. Just little things we happen to like, they don't matter in the long run and they don't say anything whatsoever about a person. And 'I don't like this pairing' doesn't mean 'I HATE IT AND EVERYONE WHO LIKES IT SUCKS!'.
No really, it doesn't.
You know, I remember when I was brand new to internet fandom, and was terrified to admit I didn't like certain pairings, or liked other ones. Because of how serious that sort of thing was. People were defriended for pairing differences. People were lambasted all over fandom for disliking or liking certain pairings. It was ridiculous, but I wanted to 'fit in' or whatever.
I look back on that and go '...wtf was wrong with me?'. At this point, I don't care. I don't hide my pairing preferences. I don't pretend to like shit I don't just because it's popular. And if someone freaks out on me or gives me shit over it... whatever. I'm really beyond caring about something as silly as that. I write what I like because I like it. Not to be 'edgy' or 'cool' or to try and make anyone like me. I used to write for those reasons, but not anymore. I came to my senses.
I just wish everyone in fandom could come to the conclusion that pairing preferences and kinks and themes we like to see in fic are just that. Just little things we happen to like, they don't matter in the long run and they don't say anything whatsoever about a person. And 'I don't like this pairing' doesn't mean 'I HATE IT AND EVERYONE WHO LIKES IT SUCKS!'.
No really, it doesn't.