Dave Matthews Sucks
So i was in Newdays, quoted, thank you very much.
I got two senior awards.
But for some reason i'm fucking depressed.
Not boo-hoo-emo-kid-where'd-i-put-my-Bright-Eyes-Cd-? depressed.
More of a "Can't something happen already?" anxious depressed.
I usually only feel like this at night. Exspecially when i nap and am up at like midnight. Those used to be my cutting hours back in the day. Not anymore, don't worry.
And these entries don't really help but i write 'em anyway. But if you feel like i'm complaining and should quit it, stop reading and go fuck yourself in the eye because i'm tired of being afraid to complain. Why can't i? I feel like shit. Even if i don't have a logical reason, i can't help the way i feel. And that just makes me feel even worse. Oh the irony. Yep.
So uhm, if anyone has any suggestions that aren't fucking retarded, which i've gotten, feel free to tell me. I can't take this feeling like i just want to jump off a fucking cliff. "I don't wanna die, just sometimes wish i'd never been born at all." Seriously. It sucks majorly.
I got two senior awards.
But for some reason i'm fucking depressed.
Not boo-hoo-emo-kid-where'd-i-put-my-Bright-Eyes-Cd-? depressed.
More of a "Can't something happen already?" anxious depressed.
I usually only feel like this at night. Exspecially when i nap and am up at like midnight. Those used to be my cutting hours back in the day. Not anymore, don't worry.
And these entries don't really help but i write 'em anyway. But if you feel like i'm complaining and should quit it, stop reading and go fuck yourself in the eye because i'm tired of being afraid to complain. Why can't i? I feel like shit. Even if i don't have a logical reason, i can't help the way i feel. And that just makes me feel even worse. Oh the irony. Yep.
So uhm, if anyone has any suggestions that aren't fucking retarded, which i've gotten, feel free to tell me. I can't take this feeling like i just want to jump off a fucking cliff. "I don't wanna die, just sometimes wish i'd never been born at all." Seriously. It sucks majorly.