Love

[thekrambuhl]

Something about a break up is too personal to tell the whole world, but i just want to get this out.  Yes, im back to the single life, not enjoying it yet, but im sure in time i will, or maybe somebody so spectacular will come along i wouldn't even need a single life.  But as it sits, im sad, this probably wont change for a while, as i said to ally a few days ago, im not angry, im not sad, im just confused.  As of right now im overly confused, and now guess what? im sad, just like every fool that thinks love will last forever. I have had a sole belief in my past, that love is all you need, you know? like the beatles song  but i guess that belief has finally been disproved.  Maybe im stating something so false ill look back at this in 2 weeks and think, "what the hell was i thinking?  i still do believe in love",  in fact  probably so.  so here it goes:

1. I love my sister more than anybody in the world.
2. I love the feeling that i get from music.
3. I love friends, they seem to show their support even more when im feeling down.
4. I love my job, i would rather work with a set of stuck up kids than work with adults anynight.
5. I love the outdoors, a days hike to see a 5 minute sunset is worth more than the world to me.
6. I love a beautiful soul, somebody who would never put up a shell for anybody, even though they know they will be broken down over and over again.
7. I love family, I love my Family, I love Annie, I Love Momma, and I love Dad.

I think the reason why i feel so hurt is that number 6 up there is me, it is how i am.  I will always wear my heart on my sleave, i have no intention of changing that, its there if you want to hurt it, but when you do i hope you feeling guilty.  By saying im a beatiful soul, i am not at all saying i am perfect, i a far way from it, but i do strive to learn what it would take to be beautiful, truly. so here are my goals for the next week, but also to hold with me for ever.

1. Love every body with a passion that nobody can deny.
2. love myself, take care of myself like i never have done before.

so i as i sit here crying, i realize that i have friends and they are what love is all about, they will make me feel better when i feel this shitty.  Thank You.  I promise ill be there for you when your down.