/bitch, moan and complain
This is my obligatory bitchy entry every month or two.
I'm pretty much just going nuts right now. I dont' even really know why. It's driving me quite insane right now. It's reallya shame.
Just so much pressure building up inside. I don't even know why, but I feel like I'm going to burst. Shit.
I feel like all these things I've been looking forward too wont be all that I'm hoping. Mostly, I really hoping college doesn't suck. I'd probably kill myself or something equally as drastic. Only not really.
Shit. I dont' even know what's wrong. It's bothering me. I'm just so sick of everything. What a lack luster time this is. Isn't everything supposed to be good right now? If these are supposed to be some of the best years of my life, then there is something seriously wrong.
Sorry, it's not like there aren't good times and memories, it's just...I feel so edgy right now, like I'm not even really me right now.
I feel...Alienated? Dissociated? Disconnected? Maybe? Sort of like being a stranger in my own skin.
These headaches are really killing me. This general unhealthy physical state that I feel like I'm stuck in. I'm not really digging it all that much, something's gotta change.
Road trip should be good, I dont' know when I should go though. There isn't much preperation for it. Just pack up and leave. Does anybody even know what's in Cape Cod? I probably wont find anything while I'm there, it wont make anything different, that makes me a little bit sad. But it'll be a change of scenery. I guess I'll be alone too, which could have mixed blessings. Maybe I just wont come home!
Everything just seems so pointless. I think I'm regressing back to the mentality that I had a few years ago. It isn't much good. I was really hoping that stupid amount of pessimism was gone. But I just can't draw anything from anything anymore.
Okay, that's not true, I can, but not enough to make it worthwhile.
Then again, what solution is there?
Bye
I'm pretty much just going nuts right now. I dont' even really know why. It's driving me quite insane right now. It's reallya shame.
Just so much pressure building up inside. I don't even know why, but I feel like I'm going to burst. Shit.
I feel like all these things I've been looking forward too wont be all that I'm hoping. Mostly, I really hoping college doesn't suck. I'd probably kill myself or something equally as drastic. Only not really.
Shit. I dont' even know what's wrong. It's bothering me. I'm just so sick of everything. What a lack luster time this is. Isn't everything supposed to be good right now? If these are supposed to be some of the best years of my life, then there is something seriously wrong.
Sorry, it's not like there aren't good times and memories, it's just...I feel so edgy right now, like I'm not even really me right now.
I feel...Alienated? Dissociated? Disconnected? Maybe? Sort of like being a stranger in my own skin.
These headaches are really killing me. This general unhealthy physical state that I feel like I'm stuck in. I'm not really digging it all that much, something's gotta change.
Road trip should be good, I dont' know when I should go though. There isn't much preperation for it. Just pack up and leave. Does anybody even know what's in Cape Cod? I probably wont find anything while I'm there, it wont make anything different, that makes me a little bit sad. But it'll be a change of scenery. I guess I'll be alone too, which could have mixed blessings. Maybe I just wont come home!
Everything just seems so pointless. I think I'm regressing back to the mentality that I had a few years ago. It isn't much good. I was really hoping that stupid amount of pessimism was gone. But I just can't draw anything from anything anymore.
Okay, that's not true, I can, but not enough to make it worthwhile.
Then again, what solution is there?
Bye