what i've noticed.(so sue me, as they say)
i sit, rotting away in my seat, a demon pins me down, fucking with my head. he shows me a slide of pictures, screen captures out of life; stills for me to admire or shrink back from. i don't yet know his intent. a cacophony rising with his breath, he whispers to me; spits his name into my ear before taking my hand and leading me towards limbo.
i put up no fight and he is displeased. pulling me aside he times things perfectly, yelling and lecturing me just as citizens pass. i'm sure my face turns red. "why are you here?" he demands, "why do you bother staying?" and thus our roles have been switched and this i spit into his ear, "you know not the reward." and he shrinks back slightly. pressing forward more, provoking the very demon i thought would crush me, "i'd like to be born again more beautiful" and with this he disappears, never to return. he selfishly leaves me to fend for myself; to cause my own end. equally selfish i refuse to go for death this way wreaks of imperfection.
i sit rotting in my seat, hostage to a brutal slideshow watching people passing by. notice people staying home avoiding everyone else as if human faults were contagious and airborne. i tally their insanity marking down their every movement.
watch how they laugh accompanyingly all willing to add to the wretched cacophony whispered to me earlier. a brood just outside my window picking at the putrid fleshiness of those who have failed before them.
watch how they look at their feet, avoiding eachother's gaze. pulling the blinds over the so-called windows to their souls. they hide their inner feelings believing human trust is no kind of trust at all.
watch how they bite their lips, conveying a want that's not really there. lies, lies, wretched lies. watch how they lie.
these little wretched liars all demons in their own right, all fucking with my head. all chiming in on the raging cacophony. all screaming at eachother, at me, and committing acts of Godly violence. they pass by on the slideshow and i hold my breath in hopes that they won't find me. leaving the production belt of pictures on full speed i find myself running, screaming in the opposite direction away from reality.
i put up no fight and he is displeased. pulling me aside he times things perfectly, yelling and lecturing me just as citizens pass. i'm sure my face turns red. "why are you here?" he demands, "why do you bother staying?" and thus our roles have been switched and this i spit into his ear, "you know not the reward." and he shrinks back slightly. pressing forward more, provoking the very demon i thought would crush me, "i'd like to be born again more beautiful" and with this he disappears, never to return. he selfishly leaves me to fend for myself; to cause my own end. equally selfish i refuse to go for death this way wreaks of imperfection.
i sit rotting in my seat, hostage to a brutal slideshow watching people passing by. notice people staying home avoiding everyone else as if human faults were contagious and airborne. i tally their insanity marking down their every movement.
watch how they laugh accompanyingly all willing to add to the wretched cacophony whispered to me earlier. a brood just outside my window picking at the putrid fleshiness of those who have failed before them.
watch how they look at their feet, avoiding eachother's gaze. pulling the blinds over the so-called windows to their souls. they hide their inner feelings believing human trust is no kind of trust at all.
watch how they bite their lips, conveying a want that's not really there. lies, lies, wretched lies. watch how they lie.
these little wretched liars all demons in their own right, all fucking with my head. all chiming in on the raging cacophony. all screaming at eachother, at me, and committing acts of Godly violence. they pass by on the slideshow and i hold my breath in hopes that they won't find me. leaving the production belt of pictures on full speed i find myself running, screaming in the opposite direction away from reality.