8 days til i'm legal!
i'm so stressed.
college: stupid. I think I'll just end up going to State. & I'm totally okay with that. State is a good school :) I don't think I'll go to UNCW because I'll just be too far away from Kati. I'm sorry. She's my backbone and helps me everyday. It also depends on the situation with me & Michael. I'm totally clueless right now. I know he's been busy with college applications, but cmon. if you have time to get on facebook and comment on other people's profiles, why not mine? I just want to know that you care sometimes. We don't have to talk on the phone for hours, just a little text message or something will do. You're totally leaving me hanging. But I still love him; I've been working much harder to learn how to deal with those stiuations that really stress me out. I'm more mellow now. He probably doesn't think so, but I do.
AND. Ok so it might not seem like it but, Kelly has zero self esteem. I don't believe in myself. ever. I don't think I'm pretty, skinny, successfull, smart, funny, I'm none of that. I feel like I'm never going to be good enough for you. You've never told me that I wasn't any of those things, but I just feel that I'm not up to your standards. sorry. And no one seems to like my hair. I still hear comments about it every day. It's my hair, I needed a change. I like it; I think it makes me look older. I'm tired of being a little girl.
I've been finding out lately who I really am. I'm not an outgoing person. I don't like the akwardness of meeting new people, but I do like making new friends after the weird part is over. I hate being a leader even though I'm forced into that situation sometimes. I know that I have about 3 friends that will watch my back no matter what and are always there to make my day brighter and are always genuinely concered about me. I've been getting a lot closer to my parents recently. I'm really going to miss them next year. That's another reason I would like to go to State, to be closer to them.
I'm really excited about Europe. I couldn't be going with a better group of people. I absolutly adore Hoyle, Byrd, and Ange. I love prom committee. The fashion show is the 26th and I'm wearing a gorgeous dress. SIZE 2 I might add! I've been learning to eat healthier and stuff...now I just need to get the exercise part down.
<3 i miss my bff.
college: stupid. I think I'll just end up going to State. & I'm totally okay with that. State is a good school :) I don't think I'll go to UNCW because I'll just be too far away from Kati. I'm sorry. She's my backbone and helps me everyday. It also depends on the situation with me & Michael. I'm totally clueless right now. I know he's been busy with college applications, but cmon. if you have time to get on facebook and comment on other people's profiles, why not mine? I just want to know that you care sometimes. We don't have to talk on the phone for hours, just a little text message or something will do. You're totally leaving me hanging. But I still love him; I've been working much harder to learn how to deal with those stiuations that really stress me out. I'm more mellow now. He probably doesn't think so, but I do.
AND. Ok so it might not seem like it but, Kelly has zero self esteem. I don't believe in myself. ever. I don't think I'm pretty, skinny, successfull, smart, funny, I'm none of that. I feel like I'm never going to be good enough for you. You've never told me that I wasn't any of those things, but I just feel that I'm not up to your standards. sorry. And no one seems to like my hair. I still hear comments about it every day. It's my hair, I needed a change. I like it; I think it makes me look older. I'm tired of being a little girl.
I've been finding out lately who I really am. I'm not an outgoing person. I don't like the akwardness of meeting new people, but I do like making new friends after the weird part is over. I hate being a leader even though I'm forced into that situation sometimes. I know that I have about 3 friends that will watch my back no matter what and are always there to make my day brighter and are always genuinely concered about me. I've been getting a lot closer to my parents recently. I'm really going to miss them next year. That's another reason I would like to go to State, to be closer to them.
I'm really excited about Europe. I couldn't be going with a better group of people. I absolutly adore Hoyle, Byrd, and Ange. I love prom committee. The fashion show is the 26th and I'm wearing a gorgeous dress. SIZE 2 I might add! I've been learning to eat healthier and stuff...now I just need to get the exercise part down.
<3 i miss my bff.