Wow, its been like a billion years!
I have neglected this journal for too long now and since I have nothing else to do right now, I think it's a good idea that I update all my journal friends about my life.
I graduated from high school on June FIRST! Yay! I know, its exciting. Except not really, and the whole day, I just wanted to get it over with without falling. Perhaps my apathy was due to the fact that on April 15th of this year, my grandmother passed away and since then my whole life has been wack. My mom moved out of our apartment to live with my grandad but let me stay because I didn't want to live in that house and I was very comfortable with everything here, in my house. Yes, I am 17 and I live alone (only like 10 minutes) from my mom and grandad and uncles, aunts, and cousins, but when I go to bed at night I am the only one here. Anyway, since then, my grades fell pretty rapidly and this bright shining star with the world ahead of her almost didn't graduate because you need to pass English and for awhile, I wasn't. An old English teacher talked to me after talking to my mom about everything and it helped tremendously. I got a D in English (MY ONLY D EVER) in the end and didn't make Honor Roll, but I walked across the stage like my Nana would have wanted.
I decided to go to Emerson College, which is in Boston, because it seems to offer a lot of the majors and career oppurtunities that I would be interested in. I had a lot of second thoughts because there are only like 35-50 plack people in this school of about 3500. It scares me to be one of the few blacks around. I didn't really like it in Elementary School and I don't think I will like it now, but I am coping and have decided to at least try it for a semester and see what comes of it. If I don't like it, I'll probably end up at American University in D.C.
The whole college thing scares me and I am not so sure how well I will do in a city, alone. For the sheer fact that I will be in a city, alone. Its a new experience and I am more scared than anxious.
So, all that is a drag and I need to lighten things up for a moment.
Lately, I watch a lot of TV because its summer and my job is to watch my younger cousins and take them to and from their theater camp (sweet!). At the beginning of the summer me and 2 of my closest friends went to Ocean City for Senior Week. We had a blast, drank some, walked around a lot and wasted a bunch of money on stupid shit. It was priceless and I can't wait to do it again. Anyway, I noticed that when I watch TV, alone mind you, I often times catch myself talking out loud about what is happeneing and commenting as if someone is in the room with me. Occasionally, I will clap is super entertained by something I see and its all very wierd. I need to get out more, I think, because that shizzy is crazy and I think that I need to work on it before I leave for college.
I think I ran out of things to say, but I will honestly make more of an effort to update. Interesting stuff happens to me, I pinky swear.
I graduated from high school on June FIRST! Yay! I know, its exciting. Except not really, and the whole day, I just wanted to get it over with without falling. Perhaps my apathy was due to the fact that on April 15th of this year, my grandmother passed away and since then my whole life has been wack. My mom moved out of our apartment to live with my grandad but let me stay because I didn't want to live in that house and I was very comfortable with everything here, in my house. Yes, I am 17 and I live alone (only like 10 minutes) from my mom and grandad and uncles, aunts, and cousins, but when I go to bed at night I am the only one here. Anyway, since then, my grades fell pretty rapidly and this bright shining star with the world ahead of her almost didn't graduate because you need to pass English and for awhile, I wasn't. An old English teacher talked to me after talking to my mom about everything and it helped tremendously. I got a D in English (MY ONLY D EVER) in the end and didn't make Honor Roll, but I walked across the stage like my Nana would have wanted.
I decided to go to Emerson College, which is in Boston, because it seems to offer a lot of the majors and career oppurtunities that I would be interested in. I had a lot of second thoughts because there are only like 35-50 plack people in this school of about 3500. It scares me to be one of the few blacks around. I didn't really like it in Elementary School and I don't think I will like it now, but I am coping and have decided to at least try it for a semester and see what comes of it. If I don't like it, I'll probably end up at American University in D.C.
The whole college thing scares me and I am not so sure how well I will do in a city, alone. For the sheer fact that I will be in a city, alone. Its a new experience and I am more scared than anxious.
So, all that is a drag and I need to lighten things up for a moment.
Lately, I watch a lot of TV because its summer and my job is to watch my younger cousins and take them to and from their theater camp (sweet!). At the beginning of the summer me and 2 of my closest friends went to Ocean City for Senior Week. We had a blast, drank some, walked around a lot and wasted a bunch of money on stupid shit. It was priceless and I can't wait to do it again. Anyway, I noticed that when I watch TV, alone mind you, I often times catch myself talking out loud about what is happeneing and commenting as if someone is in the room with me. Occasionally, I will clap is super entertained by something I see and its all very wierd. I need to get out more, I think, because that shizzy is crazy and I think that I need to work on it before I leave for college.
I think I ran out of things to say, but I will honestly make more of an effort to update. Interesting stuff happens to me, I pinky swear.