Apr 08, 2006 11:46
so i have been doing a lot of programing as of late. in fact it is keeping me up late at night, to the point where i am getting sick. i am getting pretty driven about the whole thing, and i don't like that. but its also starting to fade, i am starting to relize what i am called to do again.
the whole thng is that it gets hard "just playing bass" because thats all i do. so i started to program to try and start something that would give me something to do ouside of the love affair. but then i started to think about it... i cant stand to be #1 in anything,i dont like having the attention drawn to me. thats kinda crazy coming from someone who plays rock music. but i am a servent in my heart, i love to help others with their goals. thats why my room is such a f-ing mess.
i love The Love Affai, and i really appreciate the face that i can sit on the side lines so to speak, and just play bass, it helps me to relize that life is not about me, its all about God.
wow, that was deep