Dear friend,
These past few days have been a whirlwind of emotion.
Mostly the sad kind.
My dad’s situation has me questioning my own life.
What has my life been worth?
I’m 28 years old.
I’ve lived a life full of fun and imagination.
I’ve shared my life with amaaazing people.
I’ve pushed the limits of my creativity to places I never thought possible.
But now what?
How can I be so sad about my life, but want my dad to fight for his?
It’s all not making sense to me.
It’s all too much to handle.
I’m tired.
I kinda want to dump my life,
fall off the grid,
and set up a new life on only my terms.
But do it the right way.
Not the way that evil bastard did.
I don’t need to rip out anyone’s hearts,
and I don’t need to go fucking crazy and destroy every bridge I ever made.
I want to say goodbye.
I want my friends and family to know I love them.
I don’t want anyone to cry because of me.
That would be awful.
For now, I’m just thinkin’ about dad.
I want him to be ok.
Mostly the sad kind.
My dad’s situation has me questioning my own life.
What has my life been worth?
I’m 28 years old.
I’ve lived a life full of fun and imagination.
I’ve shared my life with amaaazing people.
I’ve pushed the limits of my creativity to places I never thought possible.
But now what?
How can I be so sad about my life, but want my dad to fight for his?
It’s all not making sense to me.
It’s all too much to handle.
I’m tired.
I kinda want to dump my life,
fall off the grid,
and set up a new life on only my terms.
But do it the right way.
Not the way that evil bastard did.
I don’t need to rip out anyone’s hearts,
and I don’t need to go fucking crazy and destroy every bridge I ever made.
I want to say goodbye.
I want my friends and family to know I love them.
I don’t want anyone to cry because of me.
That would be awful.
For now, I’m just thinkin’ about dad.
I want him to be ok.