I take it all back.
Not all, but most of it back.
Now, my pets are gone to LA.
Rent is $850 and comes with a nice Brazilain man and his condo in La Jolla. Still sharing a room and bathroom with my mother. At least theres a pool.
Still no job. Or at least accessories to go get one.
And still that want and hope to go home. Not move again. Settle down. Thats all I really actually want. To just ... settle down. Live in one house for longer than a year. Have that one job for longer than 4 months without the place closing on me. The will to not give up on relationships when their not what I want them to be or their not what I think they should be. Have a place where a baby can grow up happily.
Life has been pulling me into a million different directions and all I want to do is block it all out and create my own path. Without something happening and setting it for me.
And I wish I knew what it takes to love yo or how to even show you. What it really takes.
And I wish you knew what it really takes to show me how you love me.
Maybe we do, just not so much the showing part.
The one thing I don't actually hate about all of this, is the only innocent one this is really effecting.
Now, my pets are gone to LA.
Rent is $850 and comes with a nice Brazilain man and his condo in La Jolla. Still sharing a room and bathroom with my mother. At least theres a pool.
Still no job. Or at least accessories to go get one.
And still that want and hope to go home. Not move again. Settle down. Thats all I really actually want. To just ... settle down. Live in one house for longer than a year. Have that one job for longer than 4 months without the place closing on me. The will to not give up on relationships when their not what I want them to be or their not what I think they should be. Have a place where a baby can grow up happily.
Life has been pulling me into a million different directions and all I want to do is block it all out and create my own path. Without something happening and setting it for me.
And I wish I knew what it takes to love yo or how to even show you. What it really takes.
And I wish you knew what it really takes to show me how you love me.
Maybe we do, just not so much the showing part.
The one thing I don't actually hate about all of this, is the only innocent one this is really effecting.