(no subject)
I feel as if no one really cares about me anymore. Old-friend-wise. The only friend of mine who has really stuck with me my entire life is Teresa. And I think we will always be friends. But it sucks that she lives like 5 hours away from me. I just feel lonely. I can't remember the last time I got an invitation for a party or a phone call inviting me to a spend the night party. I just feel like I am a pest to people. The only thing that keeps me dying from boredom and lonliness is my computer.
Also, another reason why I feel so lonely, is because some dude at lunch keeps harassing me. And NO ONE backs me up. I told my friends about it and they really didn't say much. Maybe I am "fucking stupid" like that guy at lunch said. It's really depressing that no one cares enough about you to back you up. And everyone knows that I am timid when it comes to defending myself. Do I have to ASK someone to give encourage me to stand up for myself??
I am just going to leave everyone alone from now on. And if they want to hang out with me, or encourage me, then fine. That's their decision to talk to me. And I will definetely talk back. But I am not doing anything else to try and mend relationships. Because no one cares to mend my relationship. Because I am just a pest.
I'm gonna go level up now.
Also, another reason why I feel so lonely, is because some dude at lunch keeps harassing me. And NO ONE backs me up. I told my friends about it and they really didn't say much. Maybe I am "fucking stupid" like that guy at lunch said. It's really depressing that no one cares enough about you to back you up. And everyone knows that I am timid when it comes to defending myself. Do I have to ASK someone to give encourage me to stand up for myself??
I am just going to leave everyone alone from now on. And if they want to hang out with me, or encourage me, then fine. That's their decision to talk to me. And I will definetely talk back. But I am not doing anything else to try and mend relationships. Because no one cares to mend my relationship. Because I am just a pest.
I'm gonna go level up now.