It's the World I know - Crosspost of blacked out SCD rant
I started writing SCD ten years ago this month. I started doing SCD as a comic 5 years ago on September 23, 2003. I restarted SCD with a new direction and hope on October 24, 2006. It's simply irony that I find myself sitting here ten, five and two years later overwhelmed by disappointment and failure. It's unfairly fitting.
I thought I'd write this rant under different circumstances. I thought it would be something with at least a little flower to it like school had gotten in the way but I was going to graduate or the band had really gone a long way and thus I had to rededicate my time. I never wanted anything to ultimately get in the way of SCD but I do feel rather cheated that in the end, money is what got in the way.
I've only made about $30 in the last two months on the comic. And unfortunately because of Paypal fucking me over and not protecting me from a bank reversal I've made a negative $50 this quarter. Mike and I have been living paycheck to paycheck because of the economy. As far as school goes, I'm having to drop out this semester because I can't afford to go back, even with the scholarship, to finish. So that should leave me with a nice heft of extra time, all of which will be dedicated to finding a part or full-time desk job in January, at which point SCD will take the complete and total backseat. The band, which has only been around for a few months has made more money in the last couple months than even SCD has so it unfortunately gets pushed in front.
Nothing, I repeat NOTHING, upsets me more, breaks my heart more, than the fact that ultimately money has torn me away from doing something I love. While I will never stop working on SCD I find it foolish of me to even try to promise steady updates come the start of the new year. I ultimately don't know what the new year will bring but I'm preparing for the worst. I will do my best to update steadily as long as I can. There will always be something here and I'll always continue to work on it as time allows, even if that means ultimately throwing up chapters of the novel so you guys don't get left with an unfinished story. But as far as Book 2 ever being printed, don't count on it. I still have way too much stock of Book 1. And this is nobody's fault but my own, so please don't think I'm blaming anyone. If I could blame anyone I'd blame this shit ass excuse for an economy since we were fine till this happened.
I will be discounting SCD merchandise HEAVILY for Christmas sales and to help move stock. I will sign anything I can that goes out the door in thanks for your support. I'll have more information on that as I can and as soon as Paypal wants to unfreeze my account.
What I hope you take away from this rant is this:
1. I am NOT quitting SCD completely. I am merely having to rededicate my time to financially securing my family.
2. This is not a call for donations. There is no hole to dig us out of here. This is a need for constant financial supplement for which donations cannot be expected to remedy. I do appreciate the support but please don't feel like you need to donate. If you'd like to support me personally please consider preordering the band's CD. It's cheap and easily gotten with pocket change.
3. This rant sucks. I hated to have to write it. I breaks my heart to write it. I hate that we live in a world where being an artist, writer, musician or anything of that sort can't make you a living. I think it's terrible that dreams are pushed aside or crushed because of it. Nothing will ever stop me from trying to prove that wrong.
Thank you for an awesome 10, 5 and 2 years and for helping get the project this far. Like I said, I'm NOT quitting the comic. I hope to be here till the end. I WILL BE UPDATING! Weekly! Until we can come up with a plan for the future. The story gets really good from here so do stick around for that. You'll get this story one way or another so please don't think you have to abandon the site.
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I thought I'd write this rant under different circumstances. I thought it would be something with at least a little flower to it like school had gotten in the way but I was going to graduate or the band had really gone a long way and thus I had to rededicate my time. I never wanted anything to ultimately get in the way of SCD but I do feel rather cheated that in the end, money is what got in the way.
I've only made about $30 in the last two months on the comic. And unfortunately because of Paypal fucking me over and not protecting me from a bank reversal I've made a negative $50 this quarter. Mike and I have been living paycheck to paycheck because of the economy. As far as school goes, I'm having to drop out this semester because I can't afford to go back, even with the scholarship, to finish. So that should leave me with a nice heft of extra time, all of which will be dedicated to finding a part or full-time desk job in January, at which point SCD will take the complete and total backseat. The band, which has only been around for a few months has made more money in the last couple months than even SCD has so it unfortunately gets pushed in front.
Nothing, I repeat NOTHING, upsets me more, breaks my heart more, than the fact that ultimately money has torn me away from doing something I love. While I will never stop working on SCD I find it foolish of me to even try to promise steady updates come the start of the new year. I ultimately don't know what the new year will bring but I'm preparing for the worst. I will do my best to update steadily as long as I can. There will always be something here and I'll always continue to work on it as time allows, even if that means ultimately throwing up chapters of the novel so you guys don't get left with an unfinished story. But as far as Book 2 ever being printed, don't count on it. I still have way too much stock of Book 1. And this is nobody's fault but my own, so please don't think I'm blaming anyone. If I could blame anyone I'd blame this shit ass excuse for an economy since we were fine till this happened.
I will be discounting SCD merchandise HEAVILY for Christmas sales and to help move stock. I will sign anything I can that goes out the door in thanks for your support. I'll have more information on that as I can and as soon as Paypal wants to unfreeze my account.
What I hope you take away from this rant is this:
1. I am NOT quitting SCD completely. I am merely having to rededicate my time to financially securing my family.
2. This is not a call for donations. There is no hole to dig us out of here. This is a need for constant financial supplement for which donations cannot be expected to remedy. I do appreciate the support but please don't feel like you need to donate. If you'd like to support me personally please consider preordering the band's CD. It's cheap and easily gotten with pocket change.
3. This rant sucks. I hated to have to write it. I breaks my heart to write it. I hate that we live in a world where being an artist, writer, musician or anything of that sort can't make you a living. I think it's terrible that dreams are pushed aside or crushed because of it. Nothing will ever stop me from trying to prove that wrong.
Thank you for an awesome 10, 5 and 2 years and for helping get the project this far. Like I said, I'm NOT quitting the comic. I hope to be here till the end. I WILL BE UPDATING! Weekly! Until we can come up with a plan for the future. The story gets really good from here so do stick around for that. You'll get this story one way or another so please don't think you have to abandon the site.
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