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[thejumpykid]

i woke up for a specific reason and now i can't sleep. just a flood of anxiety and worry about things that are far in the future. i think its stuff that i just push aside and don't think about and then it hit me tonight for some random reason. now i can't sleep. even though i'm exhausted. i just want to sleep.
instead. i'll just lay here.

i'm not gonna look at myself and say that. i won't. so i'm gonna require more. and its gonna be ok.