i'm not doing that great

[thejumpykid]

remember that time when we were in walmart. and you wanted to buy a cd. and you picked up the fray album and we had no idea who it was but it was cheap and we thought that maybe we had heard of them maybe but not really. no one had any idea who they were. and you bought the album. and we listened to it in the car. only fifteen seconds each song because we wanted to listen to them all and we aren't that patient. and we liked it. and no one knew who they were.

i'm not really doing that great. i think i'm grieving and i don't even know it. i'm still grieving and then i'm grieving over the fact that i'm giving up. i just don't want to give up. i want to be hopeful. i want to be positive. i want someone that isn't frustrating right now. and i want someone that i'm not dumping all my problems on.

i need to think of new ways to deal with the hurt. eating, walking, driving, being in the dark.

that sounds so emo. tional. ly depressing. it shouldn't be.