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This weekend was purty awesome. Thomas' bday was chill, all the club lines were infested w/humans, so we juss went to chill @ his house, to drink of course. At about 5am i realized i had to be @ work in 2 hours lol, so i called and left a vmail saying i had been barfing all night n that i wouldnt make it, hope i didnt sound too drunk lol. But they didn't tell me anything @ work...so, good.
The next morning we woke up @ like 1pm. Aurelia cooked us some YUMMY ass breakfast...and we watched Y Tu Mama Tambien, and had some drinks lol..yea @ like 2pm. At about 5pm i figured i had overstayed my welcome lol, but thomas said we should go to ozz, i was like "ok, k0o" but that i had to go home n get ready cuz i hadnt showered n stuff...but he said i could shower @ his house n borrow his clothes, suh-weet! it was k0o cuz i realized i wasnt "overstaying my welcome" lol, i borrowed his cowboy shirt, its hott, i like it. dayum, thomas has a HOTT bod, lol. when he got outta the shower...*YUM* lol.
Going to ozz with thomas n his friends was purty k0oL. somehow i ended up @ the bar. it was k0oL, all his friends are 21+. i kicked it with "the older kids" and had a drink called a "blowjob" it was good, tasted mocha-ey. It was one of the best nights ever, i had mucho fun. I ended up spending the night again...for some reason i got a lil sad on the drive home. It sux to really want someone and not have them want u that way lol. but i like how thomas shows that he cares =)...even as a friend. adorable.
REFLECTION:
damn, i fuckin like thomas lol, whats new huh? but yeah...i remember before i would think that if i got to know him i'd lose interest, but...its totally the opposite. he's so sweet. we talked last night, and even though i talk 2 him as friends...i still feel something. i dont wanna tell him about it anymore though. i remember when i asked him if there was ever a chance for him to want me he said he couldn't answer, as in there's a chance. Im totally k0oL being friends with him... my mind tells me there is no chance, but my heart still has a glimmer of hope, and i think it always will.
Aaron was @ ozz on friday also. It reminded me that he existed lol. We said hi to eachother, that's basically it. I read his online journal, cuz i knew he had put something in there about seeing me on fri...i read about a convo he had about me w/thomas while they were outside and i was dancing w/chris.
(since i know ur gna read this)Aaron,
Yess, we are like brothers. i'd be thurr for u no matter what the circumstances are too. Obviously there was avoidance when we saw eachother @ ozz. I think we're k0oL, juss that...seeing eachother 24/7...lol, too much of something is bad for u. we need our space, no not myspace, ha. Yeah, and part of the reason im weird around u is cuz, u took me off ur friends list on myspace lol. i guess its kinda lame but i figured u wanted to 4get about me forever or something and i was no longer ur friend.
...And no i was NOT talking shyt about u 2 thomas' friends. what shyt is there to talk about? lol. yeah...it was the paranoia from the alcohol. dont trip, there's no reason to talk shyt about u. im not albert, and ...etc, thnx. lol
In other news, I finally got a gym membership...with Frank, lol. On saturday we were purty wasted and...somehow our fat came up...and we pinky promised to get memberships, so we did. We got 'em @ Ballys, but i dunno. It's really packed in there, the treadmills are always taken...n the machines are weird lol. i think i might go to...the gym i used to go to w/Windy. I know the machines there already and, it's not all crowded all the time n stuff...i guess we'll see how that goes, i have an appt w/the personal trainer tonight...im scared lol.
The next morning we woke up @ like 1pm. Aurelia cooked us some YUMMY ass breakfast...and we watched Y Tu Mama Tambien, and had some drinks lol..yea @ like 2pm. At about 5pm i figured i had overstayed my welcome lol, but thomas said we should go to ozz, i was like "ok, k0o" but that i had to go home n get ready cuz i hadnt showered n stuff...but he said i could shower @ his house n borrow his clothes, suh-weet! it was k0o cuz i realized i wasnt "overstaying my welcome" lol, i borrowed his cowboy shirt, its hott, i like it. dayum, thomas has a HOTT bod, lol. when he got outta the shower...*YUM* lol.
Going to ozz with thomas n his friends was purty k0oL. somehow i ended up @ the bar. it was k0oL, all his friends are 21+. i kicked it with "the older kids" and had a drink called a "blowjob" it was good, tasted mocha-ey. It was one of the best nights ever, i had mucho fun. I ended up spending the night again...for some reason i got a lil sad on the drive home. It sux to really want someone and not have them want u that way lol. but i like how thomas shows that he cares =)...even as a friend. adorable.
REFLECTION:
damn, i fuckin like thomas lol, whats new huh? but yeah...i remember before i would think that if i got to know him i'd lose interest, but...its totally the opposite. he's so sweet. we talked last night, and even though i talk 2 him as friends...i still feel something. i dont wanna tell him about it anymore though. i remember when i asked him if there was ever a chance for him to want me he said he couldn't answer, as in there's a chance. Im totally k0oL being friends with him... my mind tells me there is no chance, but my heart still has a glimmer of hope, and i think it always will.
Aaron was @ ozz on friday also. It reminded me that he existed lol. We said hi to eachother, that's basically it. I read his online journal, cuz i knew he had put something in there about seeing me on fri...i read about a convo he had about me w/thomas while they were outside and i was dancing w/chris.
(since i know ur gna read this)Aaron,
Yess, we are like brothers. i'd be thurr for u no matter what the circumstances are too. Obviously there was avoidance when we saw eachother @ ozz. I think we're k0oL, juss that...seeing eachother 24/7...lol, too much of something is bad for u. we need our space, no not myspace, ha. Yeah, and part of the reason im weird around u is cuz, u took me off ur friends list on myspace lol. i guess its kinda lame but i figured u wanted to 4get about me forever or something and i was no longer ur friend.
...And no i was NOT talking shyt about u 2 thomas' friends. what shyt is there to talk about? lol. yeah...it was the paranoia from the alcohol. dont trip, there's no reason to talk shyt about u. im not albert, and ...etc, thnx. lol
In other news, I finally got a gym membership...with Frank, lol. On saturday we were purty wasted and...somehow our fat came up...and we pinky promised to get memberships, so we did. We got 'em @ Ballys, but i dunno. It's really packed in there, the treadmills are always taken...n the machines are weird lol. i think i might go to...the gym i used to go to w/Windy. I know the machines there already and, it's not all crowded all the time n stuff...i guess we'll see how that goes, i have an appt w/the personal trainer tonight...im scared lol.