oh happy day : )
so my tax refund check came just in time. i was worried. so now i can go shopping with laurie tomorrow : ) yay! new clothes! so i cant go too outta control. its some nice little change in the pocket but it would go to better use going towards my car payment and other bills and such. all that responsible stuff : P i really really want my camera. but oh well. so laurie hold me back from going all out tomorrow : P
work was the longest today. its so hard to get all your work done and then have to sit at your desk looking busy so you dont get in trouble. fun stuff.
so im jealous of my brother. yes. i admit it. ended up his friend was able to get him a flight to connecticut for cheap if they go standby so theyre leaving tomorrow morning and going to check out his school. im jealous that he is actually leaving this state and starting a new part of his life. by himself. being independant. i feel like i missed out on that. but now i have too many roots here to leave or do anything like that. i love what i have here. but i feel like this is it. for the rest of my life. i want to go to school. and im trying. but stupid job is making it difficult. but i need that job to survive right now. catch 22. i wish that maybe i had tried going away...maybe to savannah. but then i wouldnt have met james : ) and i wouldnt have gotten to spend the last few years here with my gramma. so...i dont know how i feel. its all jumbled. but im happy for him. and ill miss him. but i have the summer. and maybe get to visit. that would be cool. ok...well gotta go help james.
work was the longest today. its so hard to get all your work done and then have to sit at your desk looking busy so you dont get in trouble. fun stuff.
so im jealous of my brother. yes. i admit it. ended up his friend was able to get him a flight to connecticut for cheap if they go standby so theyre leaving tomorrow morning and going to check out his school. im jealous that he is actually leaving this state and starting a new part of his life. by himself. being independant. i feel like i missed out on that. but now i have too many roots here to leave or do anything like that. i love what i have here. but i feel like this is it. for the rest of my life. i want to go to school. and im trying. but stupid job is making it difficult. but i need that job to survive right now. catch 22. i wish that maybe i had tried going away...maybe to savannah. but then i wouldnt have met james : ) and i wouldnt have gotten to spend the last few years here with my gramma. so...i dont know how i feel. its all jumbled. but im happy for him. and ill miss him. but i have the summer. and maybe get to visit. that would be cool. ok...well gotta go help james.