Stay Away
I have taken every precaution to ensure that I don't enter into another horrible realtionship. Where has this left me? It has left me with impossibly high standards. It has left me in a perpetual state of apprehension towards the opposite sex. It has left me firmly believing that "the right girl for me" does not exist. The whole social dance that we have to do when looking for someone to date or just fuck is sickening and tiresome. It is too much work for something that is not high on my priority list at all.
Everyone is a drama queen these days and I find myself becoming progressively more intolerant of drama with each passing day. Everyone I know, save for maybe 2 people, are in relationships and not one of them is good. On a daily basis, I have to hear about the drama. Every day I am presented with every reason I have that keeps me from entering into another relationship. Every day I have to tell these people what they want to hear and not what they need to hear.
"It will get better. I can make things change." That is everyone's mindset. People have to learn to step out of their happy fairy land where everyone is inherently good. They need to learn to accept the fact that it won't get better. I have experience. Put your blind faith in me oh mindless ones. I will not lead you astray. Find solace in the fact that I will provide you with all the knowledge you need to keep yourselves in a constant state of misery...but at least it's a constant state...it's routine...it will become familiar. Just remember that the most successful cults come equipped with the inevitable mass suicide.
There are little things that you can do to make it appear as though things are better on the surface for a short time. But things will inevitably go back to the way they were or worse. Only the most disciplined individuals can find themselves happy with only one person for a long time. Everyone else is a slave to their species. It is our nature to spread our seed and increase the chances of survival of our species. The sluts and whores are the most evolved. The single mothers on welfare with more than 5 children because they can't keep their legs closed but yet have enough "morals" to decide against abortion are in the alpha category...for they are the ones most successfully ensuring the survival of our species. And the dirty-dime-a-dozen males impregnating them are the superiors. STDs are competing with them...bacteria and viruses aren't exempt from evolution either...but they're fighting back. Sluts and whores. Illegitimates.
I hope all of my thoughts here won't be miscontrued as me having a defeatist attitude about relationships because that isn't at all what it is. My opinions aren't biased because I'm a "pessimist" either. I'm a realist and, being involved in science, I'm a person that bases his opinions on empirical and proved evidence. I see things for what they actually are.
I am stuck in a state of confusion. I don't know what I want anymore. I'm still not depressed. I still have yet to succumb to sedating myself with anti-depressants. I still maintain my sanity. At this point, I want to express my relief for the fact that I am not plagued by a lack of certain neurotransmitters. With this type of dreck floating around in my white matter though, it's probably best that I am alone. I still don't actually want a girlfriend. At this point, I would have to do some impressive lying to keep a good relationship. Never get inside my head. Stay Away.
Everyone is a drama queen these days and I find myself becoming progressively more intolerant of drama with each passing day. Everyone I know, save for maybe 2 people, are in relationships and not one of them is good. On a daily basis, I have to hear about the drama. Every day I am presented with every reason I have that keeps me from entering into another relationship. Every day I have to tell these people what they want to hear and not what they need to hear.
"It will get better. I can make things change." That is everyone's mindset. People have to learn to step out of their happy fairy land where everyone is inherently good. They need to learn to accept the fact that it won't get better. I have experience. Put your blind faith in me oh mindless ones. I will not lead you astray. Find solace in the fact that I will provide you with all the knowledge you need to keep yourselves in a constant state of misery...but at least it's a constant state...it's routine...it will become familiar. Just remember that the most successful cults come equipped with the inevitable mass suicide.
There are little things that you can do to make it appear as though things are better on the surface for a short time. But things will inevitably go back to the way they were or worse. Only the most disciplined individuals can find themselves happy with only one person for a long time. Everyone else is a slave to their species. It is our nature to spread our seed and increase the chances of survival of our species. The sluts and whores are the most evolved. The single mothers on welfare with more than 5 children because they can't keep their legs closed but yet have enough "morals" to decide against abortion are in the alpha category...for they are the ones most successfully ensuring the survival of our species. And the dirty-dime-a-dozen males impregnating them are the superiors. STDs are competing with them...bacteria and viruses aren't exempt from evolution either...but they're fighting back. Sluts and whores. Illegitimates.
I hope all of my thoughts here won't be miscontrued as me having a defeatist attitude about relationships because that isn't at all what it is. My opinions aren't biased because I'm a "pessimist" either. I'm a realist and, being involved in science, I'm a person that bases his opinions on empirical and proved evidence. I see things for what they actually are.
I am stuck in a state of confusion. I don't know what I want anymore. I'm still not depressed. I still have yet to succumb to sedating myself with anti-depressants. I still maintain my sanity. At this point, I want to express my relief for the fact that I am not plagued by a lack of certain neurotransmitters. With this type of dreck floating around in my white matter though, it's probably best that I am alone. I still don't actually want a girlfriend. At this point, I would have to do some impressive lying to keep a good relationship. Never get inside my head. Stay Away.