People who speak in metaphors should shampoo my crotch.
Yes, I know I haven't posted in a about a month now. No, I haven't been particularly busy, but I just don't have anything worth-while to say. I mean, I have a lot of things I could say, but I like to keep useless, mindless dribble out of my journal. I know that this is what a journal is for, but I'm too much of a perfectionist. This will probably be the first of very few posts where I will just ramble about nothing (actually, that totally depends on opinion).
I know I also mentioned to some people that I would be composing a novel this summer. I still intend to do so, however, I have too many unsorted ideas floating around in my white matter that need sorting before I begin. Time is running out though. But I'd like to think that once I organize my ideas, I will just be able to type at least a couple of chapters a night. This isn't anything I'm going to be looking to get published though. It's just a task I want to accomplish just to see if I have the potential to do so.
In other news...
I'm starting to feel more and more alone in my life. I'm starting to feel more and more isolated within my own shadow world. I came home thinking that I would be able to have fun with my friends and put away certain thoughts for the time being. But I have begun to realize that either my friends have changed or I have changed. I'm very skeptical about the former situation. Some of the activities they engage in are just completely assanine, in my opinion. On more than once occasion, I felt as though I was back in high school. It's like Neverland here. These people never grow up, while I'm stuck in the adult world with stress as both my best friend and nemesis. Their situations are completely different from my situations. And I am left with no one to relate to.
It doesn't bother me at all that I'm single though. I am actually more satisfied with my life. I have no obligations to anyone and I have no burdens. This whole feeling of isolation isn't making me depressed though. It's actually very strange that I just don't care this time around. I feel stronger than I ever have. Usually, when I'm single, I feel vulnerable and weak. This is a much welcomed change. It's funny though. I've realized that I have never gone more than 5 months being single. I think I'm going to try and remain single for a long time to come this time though. That is, unless I end up winning the relationship lottery where I find "my soulmate." But, of course, I don't believe in that shit.
I know I also mentioned to some people that I would be composing a novel this summer. I still intend to do so, however, I have too many unsorted ideas floating around in my white matter that need sorting before I begin. Time is running out though. But I'd like to think that once I organize my ideas, I will just be able to type at least a couple of chapters a night. This isn't anything I'm going to be looking to get published though. It's just a task I want to accomplish just to see if I have the potential to do so.
In other news...
I'm starting to feel more and more alone in my life. I'm starting to feel more and more isolated within my own shadow world. I came home thinking that I would be able to have fun with my friends and put away certain thoughts for the time being. But I have begun to realize that either my friends have changed or I have changed. I'm very skeptical about the former situation. Some of the activities they engage in are just completely assanine, in my opinion. On more than once occasion, I felt as though I was back in high school. It's like Neverland here. These people never grow up, while I'm stuck in the adult world with stress as both my best friend and nemesis. Their situations are completely different from my situations. And I am left with no one to relate to.
It doesn't bother me at all that I'm single though. I am actually more satisfied with my life. I have no obligations to anyone and I have no burdens. This whole feeling of isolation isn't making me depressed though. It's actually very strange that I just don't care this time around. I feel stronger than I ever have. Usually, when I'm single, I feel vulnerable and weak. This is a much welcomed change. It's funny though. I've realized that I have never gone more than 5 months being single. I think I'm going to try and remain single for a long time to come this time though. That is, unless I end up winning the relationship lottery where I find "my soulmate." But, of course, I don't believe in that shit.