Hello All
Hello everyone. It's been a while since I wrote in livejournal. Well in my xanga I put that life was going great...bla bla bla...the usual bullcrap. Man do I wish we could do a rewind when you could write whatever you wanted on the internet and no one would do anything. But once I think about it, life is going pretty well. Besides the fact that all my "friends" ditch me continuously, and I kinda get sick of being the guy that's always there when needed. I guess I feel used at times. But oh well. I guess some Josh time couldn't hurt anyone. I also get the feeling that I annoy people tremendously when I try to evoke a good conversation. Why is this? I don't know. Maybe it's because of the kind of person I am. Or maybe it's because I'm a fat lard. (You would be surprised how much different I would be treated if I shed some weight...Shows you how wonderful this world is....) But whatever. God...well God isn't too big of a force in my life right now. I know it's wrong, but whenever I do something involving God these days (CHURCH) I end up feeling hurt or pissed off. More and more I find that my school friends are the ones I can depend on. I miss it when people in church genuinely cared about what's been going on with me, not using me like I'm some disposable garbage bag. It hurts. It hurts a lot.