this is for all the niggas in the struggle
41 days clean. i just got out of rehab and what's the first thing i want to do? shoot some fucking dope. i don't know what the hell is wrong with me. i know it'll take me right back to the way i felt before, i'll lose all the trust i've built up with my grandfather, i might die, BUT IT FEELS SO GOOD. i guess i'll just keep taking it one day at a time and tonight i'm not getting high.
i ended up leaving rehab early because a bunch of people from jail release came in sneaking drugs and like half the people in the community relapsed, people were stealing each other's shit (cigarettes i understand, but fucking shampoo?!), people were always lying, and the last straw was a fist fight on the van last night going to a NA meeting.
where am i going from here?
i put in a rental application at a place in asheville and i'm moving back there. i made a few decent friends while i was up there and i know i can't stay clean in charlotte. everywhere i turn is a place i used to get fucked up, but that's my fault i guess. i've signed up for CNA classes so i can start working in the hospital (6.5 weeks and you get certified, fuck yes) and making those big bucks ($10/hr, har).
my mom sent me a letter. she wants me to come live with her in florida. UHHELLOYOU'VENEVERBEENTHEREFORMESONOWYOUWANTTOBEAMOTHER?
i weight 133 pounds now. disgusting.
i ended up leaving rehab early because a bunch of people from jail release came in sneaking drugs and like half the people in the community relapsed, people were stealing each other's shit (cigarettes i understand, but fucking shampoo?!), people were always lying, and the last straw was a fist fight on the van last night going to a NA meeting.
where am i going from here?
i put in a rental application at a place in asheville and i'm moving back there. i made a few decent friends while i was up there and i know i can't stay clean in charlotte. everywhere i turn is a place i used to get fucked up, but that's my fault i guess. i've signed up for CNA classes so i can start working in the hospital (6.5 weeks and you get certified, fuck yes) and making those big bucks ($10/hr, har).
my mom sent me a letter. she wants me to come live with her in florida. UHHELLOYOU'VENEVERBEENTHEREFORMESONOWYOUWANTTOBEAMOTHER?
i weight 133 pounds now. disgusting.