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omfg its been forever-
im happy now. im with a guy who treats me very well and doesnt give me bullshit. i think ive earned it after all this time with LOSERS who treated me like i was nothing even though i was a gazillion times better than them. i was reading through all my old entries, from the beginning of the summer, about all my drama with marty, and holy god almighty, i was dumb. im going to make it my goal in life to only pursue a man if he makes me happy AND treats me well, instead of just any guy i have a crush on. but either way, thats not a problem now. =)
my god, theres so much going on in my life right now i dont even know where to start. but i was talking to dennis today, and realized i have a really bad memory, so im going to try to start writing in lj or a real diary every day. i love looking back at how my life and emotions were even just 2 or 3 months earlier, so im trying to get back into the swing of writing all the time. i think ill be able to be online more often when i finally quit my second job, bc right now im so swamped and overworked that i can hardly breathe, much less write on lj.
im living in orlando, and IM SICK OF IT. its an ok place, i like my jobs and school, the only thing is i have no friends. NONE. so when i do have time off, i sit at home alone and depressed. =/ hopefully that will change, but there arent really any people that seem interesting at applebees, and all the kids at school are stupid. they all want to be the typical college kid- partying all the time, no job, lazy fuckers. i walk into my comp class, and the boys i sit next to are like "omg i was soooo trashed last night. haha im fucking hungover!!" im like "are you fucking serious?! its WEDNESDAY!" lol so theyre really too juvenile for me. my party time was this past summer, and now its time to be a grown-up, go to college, and support myself. im sorry, i have to pay bills and buy groceries, along with keeping up my gpa to keep my scholarships. umm no, i dont want to go to your fucking frat party. so thats the long explanation for why i have no friends.
i work at applebees in the morning- i prep food. i really just mix and portion things- not too much fun. im out of there at 2 everyday, and then i go to class, then wednesdays and fridays i go to joshs friends ice cream shop to work until 11. fun stuff. even though the ice cream shop is easy, i still need to quit bc im working the equivalent of two full time jobs, and i never have time to do my homework. so hopefully, when i have the afternoons off, i can talk to my friends more. =P
ive gotta go get ready for joshs birthday party. omg i havent seen so much liquor in a fridge since.... 4th of july i think (and that shit was fucking crazy!) so being the alcoholic you all think i am, i am EXTREMELY HAPPY. lol.
love you guys!!
im happy now. im with a guy who treats me very well and doesnt give me bullshit. i think ive earned it after all this time with LOSERS who treated me like i was nothing even though i was a gazillion times better than them. i was reading through all my old entries, from the beginning of the summer, about all my drama with marty, and holy god almighty, i was dumb. im going to make it my goal in life to only pursue a man if he makes me happy AND treats me well, instead of just any guy i have a crush on. but either way, thats not a problem now. =)
my god, theres so much going on in my life right now i dont even know where to start. but i was talking to dennis today, and realized i have a really bad memory, so im going to try to start writing in lj or a real diary every day. i love looking back at how my life and emotions were even just 2 or 3 months earlier, so im trying to get back into the swing of writing all the time. i think ill be able to be online more often when i finally quit my second job, bc right now im so swamped and overworked that i can hardly breathe, much less write on lj.
im living in orlando, and IM SICK OF IT. its an ok place, i like my jobs and school, the only thing is i have no friends. NONE. so when i do have time off, i sit at home alone and depressed. =/ hopefully that will change, but there arent really any people that seem interesting at applebees, and all the kids at school are stupid. they all want to be the typical college kid- partying all the time, no job, lazy fuckers. i walk into my comp class, and the boys i sit next to are like "omg i was soooo trashed last night. haha im fucking hungover!!" im like "are you fucking serious?! its WEDNESDAY!" lol so theyre really too juvenile for me. my party time was this past summer, and now its time to be a grown-up, go to college, and support myself. im sorry, i have to pay bills and buy groceries, along with keeping up my gpa to keep my scholarships. umm no, i dont want to go to your fucking frat party. so thats the long explanation for why i have no friends.
i work at applebees in the morning- i prep food. i really just mix and portion things- not too much fun. im out of there at 2 everyday, and then i go to class, then wednesdays and fridays i go to joshs friends ice cream shop to work until 11. fun stuff. even though the ice cream shop is easy, i still need to quit bc im working the equivalent of two full time jobs, and i never have time to do my homework. so hopefully, when i have the afternoons off, i can talk to my friends more. =P
ive gotta go get ready for joshs birthday party. omg i havent seen so much liquor in a fridge since.... 4th of july i think (and that shit was fucking crazy!) so being the alcoholic you all think i am, i am EXTREMELY HAPPY. lol.
love you guys!!