My life is like quicksand and there's no one there to pull me out..(one last gasp for air)
I don't understand myself, I mean there are a few seldom times when i do, but not very many. Even though things are going good, i still don't feel safe. I'm always thinking of the worst, which leads me to live uneasily. My new band Things Worth Wishing, that i'm super stoked on is doing alright except for the fact that Chris is grounded so we can't practice as a whole right now. I guess there is one thing to be happy about and that's I finally feel like I can move on, and I was taking the whole breakup a little too crazily. But it still tears me up that it's hard to talk to her I never ever thought that would happen and that is the only thing driving me crazy. I like feeling safe but I guess you can't always worry about things like that because if you're like me and let every little thing that works against you keep you from sleeping and concentrating and causes you to slowly lose your mind then it'll all come back on you, you'll start to hate yourself, and belive me no one likes someone who pities themselves. Sorry that this entry probably doesn't make any sense and that it's kind of a downer but it's how i feel right now.