May 22, 2006 00:29
So, I'm starting to think that I should try something new. Something I think I've tried once before, but I'm not sure. I think I'm gonna put myself on woman probation. This includes 1) not trying to find a girlfriend 2) not trying to ask girls to go places when I feel like going 3) not exerting so much effort towards trying to make girls happy, and 4) not putting my feelings as far behind those of womens as I usually do.
So, if you hear the words "women suck" outta my mouth more often, then don't be surprised. Its just my way of showing you I'm not that interested anymore.
If someones interested in me, then they'll show it (hopefully). Otherwise, I'm done exerting the effort trying to find "the one" for me. Its costing me too much money, too much hope, and too much agony. I won't outright shoot down people who seem interested, but I'm not going to be the one showing the initial interest anymore. If she comes to me, and she actually trys, I'll notice it. Hopefully, that way, things will turn out good for once, instead of being drug around then dropped, then drug around by someone else, then dropped, then thinking theres a chance, but no, then, well, you get it...