Mike being home and my angest
We were having a really good time.
Chad made it after his "comitment" and that was good.
then James O. and John showed and it was the normal ass hat crap... most of us went to Sharie's
James and John went to pick up chicks and drink.
I am very happy to see Mike and Shorty but I am up set by the people I have thought of as friends come in and start being ass hats. Often i wonder why i bother with James and John.
Both are dead beats...John has never held a Job and James quit a kick ass job because they want to have him work for his 80k...
i often feel even trying to be friends with James is holding me back from walking the path i should be on. he is like John jr and Mitch only he has had every chance and tossed it in the bin.
Yet as i write this i find my self feeling like i'm the A hole for not going along and that the local group thinks i am a A hole for it. I know i must let all this go.
I want to be the good guy and i am thinking after 2nd dregree i would like to be able to help people and lead, may be go into to the Jails and helping i know first how much a non norse person (leader) is needed here.
But none the less i can't help but feel i failed tonight, even though it was a really good time before James and John
gods i am a fuck up
Chad made it after his "comitment" and that was good.
then James O. and John showed and it was the normal ass hat crap... most of us went to Sharie's
James and John went to pick up chicks and drink.
I am very happy to see Mike and Shorty but I am up set by the people I have thought of as friends come in and start being ass hats. Often i wonder why i bother with James and John.
Both are dead beats...John has never held a Job and James quit a kick ass job because they want to have him work for his 80k...
i often feel even trying to be friends with James is holding me back from walking the path i should be on. he is like John jr and Mitch only he has had every chance and tossed it in the bin.
Yet as i write this i find my self feeling like i'm the A hole for not going along and that the local group thinks i am a A hole for it. I know i must let all this go.
I want to be the good guy and i am thinking after 2nd dregree i would like to be able to help people and lead, may be go into to the Jails and helping i know first how much a non norse person (leader) is needed here.
But none the less i can't help but feel i failed tonight, even though it was a really good time before James and John
gods i am a fuck up