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I feel so ignored now-a-days, Courtneys off talking with her boyfriend somewhere or another
Kelsey for some reason is somewhat ignoring me....
I just dont know what to do, I feel so much like an idiot. SO right now, my light-heaedness i cant think right. I no longer want happiness...i just want everyone else to be happy at the price of my own happiness. Why is it that when everything is going right,somthing goes terribly wrong and the whole world around me crumbles like fragile glass upon a wall? I jut want to..leave....So much drama, so much FREAKIN DRAMA! I cant take much more...i might explode........But noone cares much, i feel like a punching bag,someone you can use then throw them away. Reading "Children of the River" I now know...i now know what the cambodians had to go through in the war, what happened. See....a aunt was too hard on Sundara (the main character) then the aunt husband begins to talk her off....it was pretty bad...
"Your showing too much responsibility and displine of being part of a amily"
"Her mother entrusted her to me!
"YOUR ONLY SHOWING HER THE DISPLINE NONE OF THE LOVE!"
When I hear so much about someones parents mistreating them in some way...i just think ya know? Of course not what was i thinking!? HAHAHA ima go crazy soon...look I just wan everyone to be happy.....not including me....i dont diserve happiness......I had a chance, and the earth stole it. ....I no longer Role-Play with courtney
I no longer really care about my life
I no longer talk to kelsey all that much
Im just an empty shell....
Kelsey for some reason is somewhat ignoring me....
I just dont know what to do, I feel so much like an idiot. SO right now, my light-heaedness i cant think right. I no longer want happiness...i just want everyone else to be happy at the price of my own happiness. Why is it that when everything is going right,somthing goes terribly wrong and the whole world around me crumbles like fragile glass upon a wall? I jut want to..leave....So much drama, so much FREAKIN DRAMA! I cant take much more...i might explode........But noone cares much, i feel like a punching bag,someone you can use then throw them away. Reading "Children of the River" I now know...i now know what the cambodians had to go through in the war, what happened. See....a aunt was too hard on Sundara (the main character) then the aunt husband begins to talk her off....it was pretty bad...
"Your showing too much responsibility and displine of being part of a amily"
"Her mother entrusted her to me!
"YOUR ONLY SHOWING HER THE DISPLINE NONE OF THE LOVE!"
When I hear so much about someones parents mistreating them in some way...i just think ya know? Of course not what was i thinking!? HAHAHA ima go crazy soon...look I just wan everyone to be happy.....not including me....i dont diserve happiness......I had a chance, and the earth stole it. ....I no longer Role-Play with courtney
I no longer really care about my life
I no longer talk to kelsey all that much
Im just an empty shell....