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i wrecked my car. and yeah that shit sucks...i always get caught doing shit...but im only grounded for two weeks and no more sneaking around because dad finnally figured out that if he trys to keep me from something that im just going to sneak around more. and we wouldnt want that...god forbig i could be having sex! oh no! anyway Tristan said he loved me a few days ago...i was kinda shocked. ive actually had more fun bing with him than anyone ive ever been with, he is a really nice person and treats me really good...gives me lots of hugs and kisses and makes me feel like i dont have a worry in the world. time goes by really fast when im with him. i know i only have like 10 and a half months till i move out and that means i wont have to take anymore bull shit from dad and carol and i will be free! i dont know where tristan is going to collage yet. but i hope i will get to see him alot when he does go. i want him to be successful and do what he wants to do for a living. when me and him first started going out i told myself that i wouldnt fall for him and that it was just going to be fun and i wouldnt have to get attached to anyone again, but i feel attached to him and its gonna suck when he does go to collage, i just want him to have a good life. i just hope i fit in it somewhere. i know how it feels to lose someone and i dont want to feel like that again. i dont want to get that feeling, i just want it to where that does not have to happen. hes then only guy ive gone with that does not freak out about stupid shit and everything is about having humor. i love to laugh and i love being with someone who makes me laugh all the time. i like going to his house and waking him up in the morning and getting his coffee ready, and getting to see him at school and getting to just have fun whenever i want. but some people are just stupid and dont relize that the only way you can be happy in a relationship is if you are friends with the person first. if you have friendship then you can get along and have a serious side too. anyway maybe i dont know what im talking about but i do love having someone to come to when i feel like everyone else left me to die or whatever. but right now im happy and everyone can kiss my ass.