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[thejanedoediary]

today i just dont think that daniel really thinks about me that much...it just pisses me off that he connects with other people better than me and i just dont know what to think. i dont like to talk to him as much anymore because he os always talking about his friend jessica, he says he does not like her but i dont know when he says to me "yeah, today we talked about almost everything under the sun." it just makes you wonder...so i dont know im just trying to blow off some steam...this is why i dont like school. i just want the drama shit to go away. i cant wait till i can leave this town and everyone in it. im just glad i have a few friends i can talk to about it. i think the reason that he said that to me was because i told him i was going to hang out with tristan tomorrow...i dont even like tristan that way, he is just a really cool guy to talk to, and wont judge you for anything you want to say. and i wont even be alone with him because i like hanging out with him and his bro. so i dont see why daniel has to tell me that he is connecting with someone when all im doing is just hanging with some buddys. which reminds me i really miss brian and i cant ever find him cause he is always at a friends house and it would have been really cool to hang out with him this weekend due to me having a shitty job and going to quit anyway....but yeah i dont know i guess i just have alot on my mind. and i really just wanted to leave the house tonight but i didnt get to. so i hope this semester gos by fast so i can hurry up and get out of high school.
i think my number one problem with myself is that i worry about everything, and i feel like everyone is hurt, or im going to get hurt. ive been in too many relationships in my life and i really dont like the feeling of comming out of one...so i dont want that again...all i want to do is go through life and not have to worry about everyone else...and prozac doesnot help