what am i doing!!!!!!! arrrrghhh

[thejadedragon05]

i told the female who i liked how i felt and i didnt get it resiprocated , spose thats what u get for liking someone when uwith someone tho :( sad i how i feel but i cannot stop thinkin of her, and i am affraid now she thinks i am a freak of some sort, i am back to being lost even tho now my feelings are in the open to her anyway not to my gf as i do love her as the baby of my child byut i am losing all else that there is betwen us through different beliefs and wants and lifestyles,i have been thinking all day bout it and talkin with a special someone bout it all and other thoughts and feelings i am having and her and i am still at a cross roads, i tryed to use my gift (being able to read others and thoughts and minds) and it did not work for one of the first times in many months is this the plight of the vampiric man always one thing short of what he is truely after always one step behind whom he truely wishes to not follow but catch up to, is it they way it is , is this world really able to accept people of our kind,to many people are blind ,rather keep those like us confined,for the truth about the occult has never honestly and truthfully been defined, hystorians refined it anyway they chose to make it sound good or make money,a longing to see life force oozing out bodies and blood running,thats why in these times fellow kin and i must be cunning,if not they will learn of us and we will be running , for salvation,
all beings under this earths sun need to join in galvinisation,we all my be different but we are all one of the gods creation,or for that matter one of the gods them selfs,but sex lies and scandal sells,
and to many people stereo type and judge,
bvut i am higherinlightened then them so i hold no grudge,,,,,, just a little something that came to mind has a bit of a flow inthere somehwere lol comment if u understand what i am saying