Feeling Better About Our Relationship:)
Here the past few weeks I have been really shocked at how Alan has been towards me! I would almost swear that he has read this journal but I know he hasnt because if he did he would have told me he did lol. Looking back now I think it all stems from him finding out what was going on with me. Im not complaining though at all!!:) He has told me a couple of times that he wanted me to know how special I was and that he appreciates everything I do for him and the kids. THAT made my heart melt!! And you know what?? On Valentines he surprised me with flowers and a card!!!!! I was on cloud nine:) Its not him buying me stuff that made it special, it was the fact that he knew it was a special day and he went out of his way to show me how much he loves me and how much I mean to him:) I also got to voice my opinion on something else that has been bothering me too. A week or so ago we were watching the waltons and on the show John gives Johnboy some marriage advice. He tells him to ever so often spice it up and do something out of the ordinary and surprise her. Alan then asked me if I thought he did that with me and I was honest but I just smiled and said not really:) So now he knows!:) But anyway things seem to be better and I am so glad:) I hope it continues...I love him with all my heart and soul and always will, I just sometimes feel that we slip into a boring routine where its always the exact same thing 24/7 and no real one on one time. I dont think its all on him either...I think that this that Im going through has dramatized it alot, Im overly emotional and sensitive and normal things that normally wouldnt bother me does right now.