maybe I should...
things have been pretty low as of late. last week I went the cycles with the public library trying to get a job which I didn't get, and I know why at the interview the manager made the off hand comment "oh yeah your the one with out any work experience." dad has been really riding my ass about getting a job, I have been trying. but he forgets that A: I don't have any work experience B: I don't have transportation because he couldn't be bothered for 50 hours when I was in high school and C: that despite all the great numbers that Idaho as a state is getting for unemployment, Rupert are not all that great. what really bugs me is the fact that he keeps bringing up my student loans like they don't haunt me all the time all ready. its like he thinks that I am stupid and don't think about the world around. at the same time though he doesn't think about what I am going though right now. Kari called tonight. we talked bout the job market she really likes her job. she pretty much offered to let me stay at her place until I found a job, if I didn't have such a damn sense of loyalty to this hell hole and didn't think it would put her parents out I would say yes. I told her wait two weeks I might be ready then. I keep turning it over in my mind... should I or shouldn't I move in with Kari. oh and to top it all off I "raised my voice" to my grandmother this morning, she was Hispanic bashing again and I tried so hard to ignore it but I had all I could take and I snapped. as soon as she could she got up and left the table even leaving her jacket. maybe I should take Kari up on her offer.