For the life of me
She plagues all of my dreams. Today I had a dream that she came to visit me and she got out of her white MPV and then she got out of the car and I was all excited. Then a guy named Nick got out of her passenger side. I remember running to her and talking to her by my mailbox and asking why he was here. She said something along the lines that they were talking on the way from Vacaville or something and she forgot to drop him off. I just remember it being a completely awkward situation because I had invited her for a wedding and I don't know what he was going to do. Then I asked her if they were dating and she said no. She then said that she can't take this anymore. That all my questions are annoying and I need to start talking to fobs.
The other day I had a dream where she had nothing above her jaw. I thought it was interesting because it wasn't disgusting and I still loved her.
So yesterday I was wondering if she would remember to call me. If it would even cross her mind since I told her we weren't going to talk for a week last Saturday. She texted me at work that she was going to call me on her way home from Davis, but wasn't sure if I was working. I did not tell her, but it meant a lot to me. Maybe it shouldn't matter to me so much.
I later talked to her on AIM when she got home from having a dinner with friends.
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:20 am
baby bish hold me :[
i am teh depressed
schools look like G_G to get into
her 1:22 am
:[
*holdhold*
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:22 am
:\
her 1:22 am
oh yeah my bro didn't get into irvine
so he's like
'yeah i figure same for davis'
he got into sjsu but doesnt wanna go
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:23 am
but got into riverside?
her 1:23 am
mhm
:]
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:24 am
that's good
her 1:24 am
:]
her 1:24 am
i'm allied w/ yakuza & mafia
idk what to do
no mo energies
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:24 am
heh
her 1:24 am
?
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:25 am
totally shrugged off my sadness
:P
her 1:25 am
nuh uh....
:|
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:25 am
"that's nice"
"in other news.."
her 1:25 am
sorry :[
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:26 am
thanks? o_O
her 1:26 am
:/
And then the conversation died from there. It hurts, because I felt like she wasn't there for me...
The other day I had a dream where she had nothing above her jaw. I thought it was interesting because it wasn't disgusting and I still loved her.
So yesterday I was wondering if she would remember to call me. If it would even cross her mind since I told her we weren't going to talk for a week last Saturday. She texted me at work that she was going to call me on her way home from Davis, but wasn't sure if I was working. I did not tell her, but it meant a lot to me. Maybe it shouldn't matter to me so much.
I later talked to her on AIM when she got home from having a dinner with friends.
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:20 am
baby bish hold me :[
i am teh depressed
schools look like G_G to get into
her 1:22 am
:[
*holdhold*
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:22 am
:\
her 1:22 am
oh yeah my bro didn't get into irvine
so he's like
'yeah i figure same for davis'
he got into sjsu but doesnt wanna go
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:23 am
but got into riverside?
her 1:23 am
mhm
:]
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:24 am
that's good
her 1:24 am
:]
her 1:24 am
i'm allied w/ yakuza & mafia
idk what to do
no mo energies
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:24 am
heh
her 1:24 am
?
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:25 am
totally shrugged off my sadness
:P
her 1:25 am
nuh uh....
:|
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:25 am
"that's nice"
"in other news.."
her 1:25 am
sorry :[
SkankiN EmO B0Y 1:26 am
thanks? o_O
her 1:26 am
:/
And then the conversation died from there. It hurts, because I felt like she wasn't there for me...