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Leaving for the airport soon to drop my parents off. Wish I were the one leaving. Though I don't think I would be able to have fun in Las Vegas with family. Funny enough, Christine is leaving for Vegas a week from now. It sucks that she'll be out having fun while I'll be more than likely depressed thinking about all the fun she is having in Vegas. If I stop to think about it though, as much as I hate it. I would rather her have fun in Vegas than be sad like me. I wonder if she thinks about the pain I'm going through sometimes. I know she has already gone through this a few times and I was more than ignorant to the fact of what she was going through. Also, I suppose there's nothing she can do. What I want is nothing she can give. An embrace to tell me everything will be alright would be more than likely skewed in my head. I just wish she would tell me it hurts her. Instead of her telling me that I am only thinking that it does not affect her. I really wish I could go visit my cousin in SoCal, but I'm stuck in Fresno watching the dog.