i better knock on wood

[theinnocence]

my dreams as of late have been horribly soul shaking. i've been dreaming of paid shooting sprees, only stopping once i realized how many pregnant women i've shot and freak the fuck out. another was of children getting their palms sliced open and having guns implanted into them as part of a fashion trend created by adults. yet another was the

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[fairyhead]

First off, this isn't a 'you go girl' response, though I'm afraid it might sound that way.

When I was an undergrad, I was far more focused on getting a particular grade for a class. I would pull all-nighters and get up at 5 AM to finish up papers, etc., etc. Indeed I had the energy and the drive to do that.

When I went to grad school, I promised myself that I wouldn't pull an all-nighter ... ever. I tried to work hard and diligently, but to focus more on what I thought I should get out of the class, rather than the grade. It was an IT program, so I decided to definitely not invest the time that other students were - I find myself wondering if art students are like IT/computer students in their drive to put in hours, hours, hours.

You say that you like the courses and that you're soaking up gobs of info. Try and keep that in mind, I'd say. Rather than being overwhelmed by your perceptions of what others are doing, try and keep focused on keeping track of what you can get out of these classes and use what you can find to help yourself become the artist you want to be.

I know that it's cold comfort, when you feel like life is being eaten by school and that you can't catch up. It sucks. But (though I'm thinking in terms of recruiting IT folks, here), I don't give a rat's ass what gradepoint average any of my candidates have. I don't check it. I don't care. I interview them to see what they've been able to squeeze out of school and work. I have to imagine that it's the same way with art.

From my perspective, I don't worry about that kind of thing and you. I think you're an awesomely talented artist already. Anything you get out of school is only going to hone the talent that is already there in you.

[theinnocence]

the main reason why i DO worry and why i NEED to worry about my gpa and such is because of how much of everything hangs in a thin balance due to teh fact that i am here majorly on giant scholarships that demand i have a 3.0 or higher at all times. once i drop beneath that i can't afford the school anymore.

hence... the worrying.

damnable stipulations!

[fairyhead]

That's fair enough.

Not to get too prying ... do you think that you are worrying because it will be too much to keep the 3.0 or is the whole thing feeling so overwhelming that it's causing you to worry? (I missed a lot of LJ while in TN, so am not sure if I've missed posts about this stuff or not. If you want me to shut the hell up about it, you can tell me that, too. I'm projecting a lot, with these questions, based on what goes on in my mind with stuff like this in my life.)