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the ground is wet with colored leaf confetti. the trees barely bending to a subtle wind. i want to go out but i want to stay in.
i contemplate making cookies. big gooey chocoletey-peanut-buttery kind. i think about it but i say "i'm too tired". i seem to be too tired for just about anything unless it involves doing something with other people, and that never happens.
i guess i should make the cookies. it'll be another thing to gorge on. i love cookies an di love milk. might as well try to make myself some sort of happy.
my life is both exciting and so utterly dull at the same time. yes, it can happen and it does to me, very often.
thursday night my dad got a call to an emergency job on friday. videotaping a wedding. we're told it's a themed wedding so we get excited. you see enough run of the mill weddinsg that a themed wedding is pretty awesome and rare. it was a 1920s ganster wedding. they rented out a warehouse and turned it into a speakeasy. the guests were dressed in zoot suits and flapper outfits. there was a swing band playing. crap tables and card games as well as an open bar. the place was decked out with a outline of a city skyline in black, with xmas lights where windows would be. it was beautiful. some of the guys even had toy tommy guns.
before the wedding my older brother came over hung out and cooked up dinner. lamb chops with pumpkin butter glaze. played guiotar hero and talked lots. it's always fun when he comes over.
saturday morning my father and i woke up at the same time as my younger brother. he headed to work, which i lamented, and we headed out to michigan. my sister lives there. the sister i found out i had last year and didn't know of. we were going to meet the rest of our family and take family photos.
her husband is such a great fellow. nice to hug and easy to get along with. shares the same interest in odd movies as we do. my nephew corey is at the age where he asks "why?" to everything. he's so full of enegry and questions. kind of like how i want to be. and emma! emma is so adorable and holdable and wonderful. her eyes glow so much with amazement and true innocence.
and my sister? my sister carly is just that. she's everything a cool sister should be like. not one time during the visit did i feel uncomfortable or awkward. the whole thing felt natural and as if it happened often. i so wished my brothers could be there.
i have such a beautiful, loving and supportive family with the oddest most twisted branches in parts of the tree i never knew exsisted. this extends to friends, not just family. i may think my branch seems dead in what i can do for others, but the tree is so full of life and so many different fruits and leaves and colors and bark.
i think i'm in love with my niece and nephew. i can't wait to go back and see more of that part of my family and with my brother philly.
here's some pictures of them when it came to bathtime:
while i was over there and sleeping i dreamt of a parakeet in an aquarium, under water and eating the fish that swam by. i tried to tell the people who owned the house it was in, but it was night time and they were asleep an di knew it was my parakeet in some way or that i was responable for it, so i didn't want to say it was eating the fish and was wondering how it survived underwater. then somehow i was taken to an evil candy factory where we were told to make up flavours and everything they gave us was poison in some way and we were on a rollercoaster throughout the whole factory.
i wish my life was as active as my dream life, but then again i dream so much cause i sleep so much cause my life isn't all that active.
i think i'm gonna go make cookies, wash my dog and get ready for nip/tuck. i need to keep attempting to try to do things that make me happy in some way, even if they are small ways, otherwise i wouldn't be happy at all.
i contemplate making cookies. big gooey chocoletey-peanut-buttery kind. i think about it but i say "i'm too tired". i seem to be too tired for just about anything unless it involves doing something with other people, and that never happens.
i guess i should make the cookies. it'll be another thing to gorge on. i love cookies an di love milk. might as well try to make myself some sort of happy.
my life is both exciting and so utterly dull at the same time. yes, it can happen and it does to me, very often.
thursday night my dad got a call to an emergency job on friday. videotaping a wedding. we're told it's a themed wedding so we get excited. you see enough run of the mill weddinsg that a themed wedding is pretty awesome and rare. it was a 1920s ganster wedding. they rented out a warehouse and turned it into a speakeasy. the guests were dressed in zoot suits and flapper outfits. there was a swing band playing. crap tables and card games as well as an open bar. the place was decked out with a outline of a city skyline in black, with xmas lights where windows would be. it was beautiful. some of the guys even had toy tommy guns.
before the wedding my older brother came over hung out and cooked up dinner. lamb chops with pumpkin butter glaze. played guiotar hero and talked lots. it's always fun when he comes over.
saturday morning my father and i woke up at the same time as my younger brother. he headed to work, which i lamented, and we headed out to michigan. my sister lives there. the sister i found out i had last year and didn't know of. we were going to meet the rest of our family and take family photos.
her husband is such a great fellow. nice to hug and easy to get along with. shares the same interest in odd movies as we do. my nephew corey is at the age where he asks "why?" to everything. he's so full of enegry and questions. kind of like how i want to be. and emma! emma is so adorable and holdable and wonderful. her eyes glow so much with amazement and true innocence.
and my sister? my sister carly is just that. she's everything a cool sister should be like. not one time during the visit did i feel uncomfortable or awkward. the whole thing felt natural and as if it happened often. i so wished my brothers could be there.
i have such a beautiful, loving and supportive family with the oddest most twisted branches in parts of the tree i never knew exsisted. this extends to friends, not just family. i may think my branch seems dead in what i can do for others, but the tree is so full of life and so many different fruits and leaves and colors and bark.
i think i'm in love with my niece and nephew. i can't wait to go back and see more of that part of my family and with my brother philly.
here's some pictures of them when it came to bathtime:
while i was over there and sleeping i dreamt of a parakeet in an aquarium, under water and eating the fish that swam by. i tried to tell the people who owned the house it was in, but it was night time and they were asleep an di knew it was my parakeet in some way or that i was responable for it, so i didn't want to say it was eating the fish and was wondering how it survived underwater. then somehow i was taken to an evil candy factory where we were told to make up flavours and everything they gave us was poison in some way and we were on a rollercoaster throughout the whole factory.
i wish my life was as active as my dream life, but then again i dream so much cause i sleep so much cause my life isn't all that active.
i think i'm gonna go make cookies, wash my dog and get ready for nip/tuck. i need to keep attempting to try to do things that make me happy in some way, even if they are small ways, otherwise i wouldn't be happy at all.