Random Thoughts

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Sometimes I think its destined for us to be together......
Most times I think "what the hell are you thinking? you'll never live up to her standards"
Anxiety sucks.
Feeling like you are slowly entering the "friend zone" again sucks more.

I ruined my big plans for her birthday by being an idiot.....atleast I got an "A" for effort and "C" for achievement.

Now to think of something better.
She's not a romantic.
I'm a hopeless one.

She usually dates assholes.
I'm so nice it makes me sick at times.

I'm being completely vague.
The people that matter to me know what I am talking about on here.

I want to ask her out.
I'm afraid she'll say no.

She's told others that she likes me.
I'm still waiting for her to tell me herself.
I can't wait forever.
The wait is killing me.

Anytime I feel at peace I have nightmares that she ends up back with HIM!
Hopefully she'll give the nice guy a shot for a change.

Until then I wait.
Has the time come and past again?
I don't know.

Will I actually have a meaningful non-vague post again?
Who knows?

Can you say maybe after 1-2-06?
I can.

Maybe.
Till then or till never.

I fade away again.